Congratulations to you guys once again
You and your folk
Again for the hundreds of time
To hit me again
Broke my heart into pieces

And once again
My barrier of ego being built
To protect these dangers
From these barbaric men

And sooner or later
These shield will being destroy
By one of you
And once again
They will broke my heart

This journey of me
Will never end
With such continuos flow of life
*sigh* just like a wheel
The history repeat by itself
Just let time be the judge
And these thing happen
To crush and destroy me

Why why and why
The men i love
The men i adore
The men have a crush on
The men i would like to have
The men i would love to end my life with
Always do this to me

These demon wearing human facade mask
These so called men
Really teach me a lesson
They define the word BROKEN HEARTED
To the next level
With a new dimension
A new different meaning and definition

And such life teaching experience
Really teach me to be such a jerk
And don't forget to add on, stuck-up
Just for a moment though
Till a new member of their group came to my life
And the histroy will repeat by itself

Even once i said to myself
Never believe in love
Don't ever dream
Just stand tall
Show the world
That you do not need these demon in your life
Live as a living proof as an indepence person


But i never have the courage to do so
Already half way and then He sent me these demons
These mystical creatures so called
Demons powerful enough to destroy you
And let you suffer
And make you feel that this world is not meant for you
And feel down till you believe this is the end
And feel that there is just an empty space a head
*sigh* a black hole
Without any source of sun

I'm afraid to say that i don't believe in love again
Anymore after these
I afraid with the outcome of the future
The plan He already set for me
The dream He have for me

I afraid to continue breathing
To open my eyes in the morning
To start a new day
Afraid to meet another demon, messenger from hell

Incident after incident
The shield is going to be much more thicker than before
And i know
Once in the future
It is thick enough
Not any of these demon can pass trough
A live without love
A live meant for myself
A live of loneliness

And I knew these tragedy
Tragedy of self-death
Walking zombie my folks would say
A living creature without soul
Without emotion
Without personality
Without anything
Just a breathing mannequin with blood veins
And a heart that mean to be broken by all

Once again
At the end of these journey
I have been weeping
And crying
Trying my best to go through
This journey of lovelife
And to know and to discover
I still will be weeping and crying on my death bed

Congratulations Demons
May you have a wonderful celebration on your success today

Labels: Relationship

Regards with love,

posted by Isis Natasha @ 20:39