in the morning i hope for a sunlight, but the end the only thing i get is only raindrops flowing down my cheek
a lot of rumours had been heard, none of them can be true in my heart
how loud i yelled, how loud i scream
still unable to stop the demon shout
a long time i live, a long time i learn
a long time i gained experience, a long way i already went
still can find the true match, the perfect love
when i found one and believe it is the true love of my heart,
appear alot of demon hand try to pull me down
no matter how hard i tried, i still cant win the king's heart,
still be the servant by the cinder
am i that ugly?
am i that unlucky?
am i not meant to be loved?
am i not meant feel loved?
am i not being destinied to enjoy love?
am i be be born to watch and envy other peep enjoying love?
am i being here to watch other peeps trick me?
am i the soul that being sent away without soulmate?
am i going to die alone?
am i going to watch my body being cremenated alone?
when other peeps said u can have easily have men,
only i knew how hard it is
i lost faith on the proverb,
there is a soulmate for everyone,
i lose faith to believe a new day has come,
i lost faith to continue on living
for me there are single lining behind every grey clouds,
but they are meant for others,
not for me, not for Isis Natasha,
emotional breakdown some peeps may say,
temporary to others few,
forever in my heart,
so long had wait for a sun to shine,
crying badly when it start to move away again, again and again.
Labels: Relationship
posted by Isis Natasha @ 22:55 1 Comments
Peeps around em asked about this thing and what happen actually during the event. And seriously, meks sudah mendengar bermacam-macam versi of the story
Macam Macam cerita meks dengar, but the truth, dinch tahu. Wallah-Hu-Alam. Antara versi versi yang nak pecah perut meks masa meks meendengar kisah ini yang kini menjadi buah mulut orang ramai di Bukit Bintang, meks dengar ado peeps yang bercertia:
1. kaedahnya yang menang ittiew telah memasuki bilik pihak penganjur.
2. Miss Sarawak ngan ketua jury yang ala ala pengkid ittiew bersahabat baik di luar dan bawah one clique.
3. Puan Sri tue sebenarnya berangan .. die tue hanya la Makcik biasa yang terasa nak tunjuk vast kat function function underground inniew!
4. Miss Sarawak tue sebenarnya adalah anak sebenar aka anak kandung Puan Sri ittiew!
5. Miss Sarawak pergi mandi bunga kat Sabah a week before pageant.
6. Miss Sarawak tanam patung siam kat DAHI! (tak pernah meks dengar tanam patung kat dahi, this is the first time!)
7. Ketua Juri, yang ala ala penolong PUTERI UMNO tue bukan ahli UMNO actually!
8. Ketua Juri tidak tahu konsep dan format pageant, dincht ahu ada TOP 5!
9. Miss Malaysia dibuat di Arena Of Star, genting Highlands!
10. Miss Perak, Isis Natasha (meks sendiri) bergado ngan Miss Selangor, Viviana Abdullah.
11. Juri, Lealaurielle LaiLee Abdullah sendiri yang pergi naik atas pentas and ragut crown
12. Lady sagat muke budak cos ada budak jeling die pasal keputusan.
13. JOE KK sagat muke budk kat sana.
14. Miss Sarawak habaq mai kat Mama, "You keep all the money, i just want the crown and the title".
15. Ginger balik awal, sentap cos banyak lagi yang cantik dari die kat atas pentas.
16. Penonton meja belakang sentap cos tak masuk dlm DVD arezeo cos kamera tue depan sgt.
17. Contestant lain sentap cos tak de pic depa diambil oleh Roland Hashim.
18. Miss Labuan bertumbuk ngan make up artist sendiri belakang pentas.
19. Miss Perlis, Hani Arisha ambil seri kawin sepupu masuk pageant.
20. Miss Perlis, Hani Arisha di make upkan oleh Nurul Shukur.
21. Miss Perak sentap tue yang what exit ke depan cos nak pergi bantai jury especially yang last one.
22. Sponsor baju Miss Perak, Ku Mukriz menangis becos ado contestant lain dinch mahu pakai baju nye, (Isis pakai occay!)
22. Miss Perak ngan Miss Selangor berebut gi jumpe Kak Su Ampang mandi bunga dengan amik minyak senyoyok.
23. Makanan yang di order oleh Mama is only for 100 peeps.
24. Crown hilang sampai 4 bijik.
HELLLO!! Korang semua tak tergelak ke bile korang dengar mende - mende nie? kekekekeke. mulut orang lain memang selalu suke wat lawak kan. kih kih kih!
Ado kah meks perlu jawab satu persatu? I think I better jawab jew yang berkenanaan ngan Miss Perak tue nah!Hiks! About other things or other commetn or other gossip tue, malas la nak jawab - like Lea's, NO COMMENT. Yerla nnti kalo meks komen lebey kata meks sentap witht he decision, kalo tak komen, kata meks ni ala ala bangang nak jawab soalan pung tak leh .. better no komentar!
1st gossip : 10. Miss Perak, Isis Natasha (meks sendiri) bergado ngan Miss Selangor, Viviana Abdullah dalam bilik make up and changing room.
Isis : LEYH!!!!!!!Wakakakakaka. Kaedahnya! Me don't know how they leh terpikir untuk wat such spekulasion! Viviana, what say you? Lea, what say you?
2nd gossip : 11. Juri, Lealaurielle LaiLee Abdullah sendiri yang pergi naik atas pentas and ragut crown
Isis : Wakakakakaka. Seriously, meks tergolek guling gelak terbhak bile mendengar mender nie. Kisah mcm nie, ada la gaban ni call meks tanya betul ka? I was laughing burst out loud yer! And i bet Lea pung masa die baca bende ni nanti! Watch DVD by Arezeo nakt ahu sapo! (Leyh!! Macam ada kuiz lak!)
3rd Gossip : 12. Lady sagat muke budak cos ada budak jeling die pasal keputusan.
Isis : I'm trying my best to imagine Lea bantai budak with her shoking pink, green corset, denim mini skirt, strap heels! Lea, what say you? In fact ado yang tanya meks betul ke idak budka tue masuk WARD occay!
4th Gossip : 21. Miss Perak sentap tue yang what exit ke depan cos nak pergi bantai jury especially yang last one.
Isis : KEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKE. Kalo meks nak bantai jury meks bantai yang first one lah. Wat per nak bantai yg last one kan! Hiks! No lah! actually, masa rehersal dinch diberitahu cara nak exit and all. Hanya practice jalan jalan masa intro (ittiew pung berteraburan). So since tidak diberitahu, meks ikut la peraturan pageant before, use ur enterance to exit if the organiser didn't tell you bout it, kan!
5th gossip : 22. Sponsor baju Miss Perak, Ku Mukriz menangis becos ado contestant lain dinch mahu pakai baju nye, (Isis pakai occay!)
Isis : Fifi, uols ada nangis ka? Meks dinch perasan pung. Ke uols menangis masa uols gi carik something to bukak pose? KEKEKE? Hey, but meks tahu uols tak kewwsah pung pasal incident tue kan! Aiyo .. mulut org!!
6th gossip : 22. Miss Perak ngan Miss Selangor berebut gi jumpe Kak Su Ampang mandi bunga dengan amik minyak senyoyok.
Isis : Ni lagi satu kes! Awat depa tak buat cerita je meks pergi Bangkok tanam patung kat bawah dagu? Or meks gi bangkok beli patung and tanam bawah rumah ke? Dok siram patung everyday ke? Gi sabah mandi bunga ngan air terjun Gunung Kinabalu ke? DINCH occay! But for Viviana, meks dinch tahu la!
*larik!!!!!
Apa komentar uols mengenai issue ini? Leh terima dek akal tak skunk mende nie? Dinch kan!
Labels: Beauty Pageant
posted by Isis Natasha @ 17:13 2 Comments
Well, we can see one of them is TULEN (lalat sangat die nie .. kape kes die nie .... meks dinch perasan meks ada caras laki die .. ni mesti perempuan yg tak puas hati ngan meks cos meks lagi melersts and vas vas dari die .. kape muke TULEN ni sangkak ala ala kalo tgk cermin cermin pung retak kew? Adik ku TULEN, jangan la marahkan kakak cos saya lagi cantik, salahkan ibubapa you kerana BAKA yang tidak elok yer! kekekeke) ..and thanks for the other chatters yang defend meks, but hey NO need to do that .. if we care and always defend ourselves against other peeps komentar about ourself, sampai mati pun dinch habis ... kain kapan reput pung, mulut depa masih berkata-kata .. biarkan saje .. keep on with our own life bcos i believe under one main principal of life ; "NO BODY UNDERSTAND MYSELF BETTER THAN I DO".
What I'm gonna write bout today .. Erm .. Alot of things happen lately! Erm .. kinda busy with work and all. But hey that is the nature of life. Well lately I discovered something regarding my own self which I never realise before. The story goes on like this:
Well, I have a crush for a guy lately .. But ala tak kewsah sangat la about that. If this turn out to be something .. kalo ado, ado and BONUS some more, but kalo dinch ado pun tak pe .. at least I learnt something and add a new expereience in life and also a new friend to be with till my deathbed.
But it just struck me once like a thunder (bukan halilintar yang ala ala memanah meks yer! Tolong sikit ... yang patut kene panah bukan meks, tapi org lain yang bawak kembara .. OOPS!), I do have a thing for skinny guys with a strong musculine jaw line and strong cheek bone. Why? DINCH tahu la kape. Ntah la, my taste and preferences bertukar just like that! Erm .. dosi dengar, mesti uols rasa pelik banget deyh kan! Ala ala gambar model model for Versace Ready-to-Wear!. Kan kaedahnya! Hiks! Not saying that my crush tu muke die ala ala versace's model but (kene ada yerk .. nanti kalo just incase die baca and mana la tau die perasan ke this is bout him, nanti die kata i tak kata die cute lak! kang majok lagik! kekeke - (eh alamak entry ni dah jadi mcm entry untuk abg COMEL la!) kinda cute jugak la die tue .. But ntah la .. Peeps around me sellau cakap and bersetuju with the fact that skinny guys turn me on, and those with strong jawline n cheekboone tun me HOT RIGHT ON. Hiks!Some of my fren even said that i have a thing for guys who are cute .. Baby face we called it formally or muka anak ikan (tapi kalo muke anakikan buntal, meks tak mau!). Hiks! Ntah la .. Why yerk nowadays? Kalo you guys hang out with me, korang mesti perasan bout this thing. Erm .. Dunno la. But seriously I have a thing for cute little ones now! ARGH!!! But tak la sampai umur depa tue bawah umur . Tak nak la I berlakon filem sebatan 18 kali ngan rotan ekor ikan pari for underage sexual harrasment. Hiks!
And I curious again, Do two peeps who have similar faces (ntah la uols, depa dok kata muke meks ngan my crush ni ala ala hampir serupa .. aiyoo! apakah maksudnya ittiew? Adakah die cucuk sana cucuk sini? Tak per.. and dinch kewsah!) and when they like each other (kaedahnya budak tue suke emks kew?), do they last long? Erm .. ramai org cakap mcm tue, but betul ke? Seriously confuse!
And what should you do in order to know what is inside the heart of ur own crush! And seriously i tak suke being in crush state ... cos i cant control the situation! Argh!!! Benci gile kalo meks ado crush cos i need to know what is inside the guys' heart i want to know his feeling so that i can move on with my life! (eh! sat bukan ke on the begining of te entry meks ado kata meks leh keep on going to matter what the condition? erm!...) hiks!
What up after this?
- Miss Malaysia 2006 - confession of a contestant
Labels: Relationship
posted by Isis Natasha @ 17:06 0 Comments