CHAPTER 3 : FASHIONS part 1!!
Monday, October 30
Lama sungguh rasanya I tak update blog I kan! hiks! Lalalala, sebelum I memulakan madah madah menyambung cerita episode yang tertunggak, ingin disini I ucapkan Selamat Hari Ghaya Eid-Fitri 1427 kepada semua pembaca. Kalau ada salah dan silap, harap maafkan la yer~
Episode 3 : Fashions!
Bagaimana tajuk episode tiga? La la la. Fashions! katanya. In this chapter, I will wrote about how dress up during those days! Katanya!
Me masih ingat lagik, when Marvelon baru je habis dalam 3 or 4 papan mcm tue, me dah berani lite lite pakai make up.
Actually masa first first masuk mmg dah bermake up. Start ngan make up biasa foundation sajork. But masa tue me tak pakai maybeline or wat so ever, troos start ngan pancake chinese with serum spray. Hiks! Matilah tengah hari buta, muka I macam clay tanah liat kan!!!
Lepas dah abis 2 papan mcm tue, ala lite-lite aje blusher yg meks berikan. Ala-ala kaler brown earth color. Masa ni masih lagi berpakaian lelaki. Katernya, Kemeja tapi ada cutting. Apa temanya? Eye shadow pung dinch berani pakai yerk. Me occay lagik!
Lepas dah berpapan-papan, my breast getting bigger, me pung pakai la push bra. That it! Masa pakai Push bra ni, I still remember, the first bra me beli was kat KLCC kat bawah ittiew. Kaler hitam katanya. Black is exclusive. La la la.
And starting that, bermacam-macam bra mek beli. Ada yang ada diamonds la, lace la and all. Tapi my most fave bra is lace Pink, base kaler hitam with diamons. Beli murah sajork! Kat Bintang Fashion leh! Sebenar bra ittiew kaler hitam je. Biasa la pondan pondan gaban gaban kan creative gilbabs! meks pung beli lace shockign pink tambah sana tambah sini, tampal diamond ... lepas tue pakai la. La la la. Tapi sayang bra ittiew telah hilang masa pindha pindah rumah dulu. Sayang tul. Tapi kalo ada pung nak wat per, bukannye pakai kan!
Baju pun, berubah sikit sikit. Mula mula beli kemeja perempuan yg cutting tenggek and all. baju kemeja mcm te mmg dah beli lama masa zaman awal-awal. Cos kan nak gi klass kene la pakai baju berkolarkan kaedahnya. Sahsiah rupa diri sgt yer!
Lepas tue, jab me cuba nak ingat the first time me pakai skirt. Oh yes! That was masa kuar gi curans ngan Jee and tTyra keliling Sec 9. Mini skirt katanya! matilah tayang ranting kayu kan! From that moment, everytime kuar aje, terus mememaki skirt or at least yg leh tayang kaki.
Tue yang jadi kes last year, gi bazaar ramadhan, pakai mini skirt, bolero putih yang teramat pendek. I think i ada gambar tue masa ni bukan la masa kat bazaar ramadhan. ni a week after that masa bersahur ramai ramai kat NZ Curry House. Me kie and all.
If I not mistaken, my jeans kan yang pjg baru ada 2 . Skirt melambak. Padding lagi melambak. Heels jgn cakap la. Every week, ada duit aje, dpt voucher aje, terus redeem beli heels kan! dari heels tinggi vincci, to flip flop Uptown Dsara. Lama-lama sikit baru la belajar nak tempah heels, dari situ that it la! Teruskan lakan pandai ke Nagoya, beli kain untuk buat kasut. Lepas tue now, semua kasut tue, hanya letak dlm kotak kat store rumah my mum. How? PEMBAZIRAN sgt yer! La la la - tapi tak pe, janji I puas rasa semua tu.
Next Chapter 4 : Fashions part 2
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SPECIAL EVENT TO OUR MALAYSIAN BROTHERS AND SISTERS!
Saturday, October 21
Dah 21 October. Lagi 2 hari sahaja untuk berpuasa. And then raya! ARGH!!!! Baju raya or shopping raya pung belum habis. Macam mana ni? My cuti pun the day before raya. Masa tue confirm la baju tak de size la apa la. But What the heck, as if my badan begau kan! Size S or super size S conpem ado!Me bersiar-siar ke blog lain. Me lihat sume dah sebok wish raya. Lea with her couratesy untuk wish to lelalats, Fifi some more .. manyak la dah start!
But kaedahnya, kenapa nan ado yang ada race sensitivity here. Oleh ittiew, me rasa kiter patut lupekan terlebih dahulu perayaan Aidilfitri ini, dan tumpukan sehari ke perayaan our other Malaysia.
To All Malaysian, especially my bestfriends, bloggers, readers and anyone who knew me,
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Chapter 2 : The Baby Step
Friday, October 20
Hari nie me rasa nak jadi gigih la sikit. Macam nak wat due entry la today! Tibe-tibe I dapat satu idea yang macam best aje. hiks! But let start with Chapter 2 first!
Chapter 2 : The Baby Step
Well, to certain readers yang dinch tahu pasal dragui bagai ni, atau cara untuk mendapatkan body yang persis perempuan seperti Bibi, Laura Madonna and Vivianna, we have to eat certain pill. Actually pill ini adalah pill pencegah kehamilan or pill hormon seperti it is widely known. Untuk keterenagn lebih lanjut, boleh la bermesej-mesej dengan XXX mengenai pill ini. **LARIK!!!!!
Actually, about those pill, leh dapat kan dengan mudah. Dulu masa me makan all of these, beli je kat farmasi, sometimes abang ittiew siap rekemen kan yang mana lagik sesuai. Price range depends on the product. Siap ada yang cetak rompak lagi.
Masa me start makan dulu, biasa la. Kita start of cos la dengan yang biasa biasa aje kan! Tidak lain tidak bukan Marvelon! DUH! Me masih ingat lagi that was 2 years back! (Wow! It has been 2 years dah! Lama nye! Masa tue me pun tidak kenal Kie lagik kan! Lalalala). Masa tue me masih lagi study in Law Faculty Shah Alam first semester degree student. But kaedahnya dah berani nie, adik adik biasa la kan. Umur 19 years old but dah start bermake-up ke kelas. Kaedahnya tetek dinch ado sume but make up kalah perempuan tulen lain kan! Me no comment sgt!
Masa tu, me duduk serumah kat sec18. Tak nak kalah nie. When the uni give me a room tak mo duduk kan. The room kat hostel tue siap untuk empat org lagi. Masa tu, 4 org tu mewah sgt. And guess hostel mana? PERINDU SUNDEL!!!! kolej Perindu nimacam haeven la to all bapok bapoks! Me dapat lak Perindu 4, blok budak tentera and budak sukan. Aiyooo! Me sungguh stupid! Kalo me ambik memang tak menang tgn but thanks god me tak amik. Kalo tak makin sundal la perangai meks!
What ever la, dengan semangat gigih me sanggup yerk keluar rumah sewa di sec18 tue sejam awal untuk amik Bus Mini kaler Pink (meks suke ittiew kaler suker girang sgt!!) kemudian turun kat Sec2, depan medan makan lama itu or seberang kolej Jati. Lepas tue, dengan with all the books (paham pahamla, buku Law beart sundel!) me kene lintas that big road to seberang jalan, sebaris ngan koleh Jati untuk amik Bus UiTM pula. Masa dalam bus pink itu boleh la ala ala feeling kekwt becos tak ramai org, but dah nak naik itu bus UiTM kene la berebut kan!
Begitu Gigih nye I kan!! Lepas tue, I still remember every Monday I mesti pergi ke farmasi yang sebelah 7-E kat sec18 untuk membeli Marvelon. Even tho that pill was supposed to be eaten sehari sebijik! But me DINCH!!! Setiap hari from the first day me eat that thing, More than once. For the first three month, makan lagi best. Me dah rasa that pill macam nasi. Macam ni tau, Me memang terkenal di fac with my clique after last class of the day aje, terus cabut pergi ke coffee house kat Menara or Kedai Kopi at tasik for tea time. Makan cheese cake la, mocha and just hang out and chill. Makan one slice of cheese cake, makan 2 biji pills. After Lunch, 2 pills. Dah macam makan antibiotik dah. 2 biji setiap kali lepas makan. Macam mana la tak abis duit. Gigih kan?
After a few months, baru la me berperangai seperti manusia sedikit. Sehari me makan 3 pill. Sepapan ada 21 pill, so seminggu la tahan. Tue yang every Monday gi farmasi tu. Mule mule sepapan RM9, and then naik jadi RM10.50 and now, me gi survery harga kat that same farmasi, sudah RM12!!!! HArgh tuih mahal nyew!
But the effect mmg berkesan. Pimples hilang in a week. Nafsu makan astagana ilmaualana. Hanya Tuhan yang tahu betapa kuat makan nye I masa tue. But thanks GOD, my berat tidak naik mendadak. Infact my berat boleh dikatakan maintain (MAINTAIN KE NAIK 5 KG!). But serius shit. Kenaikan berat badan melonjak-lonjak! Tue yang terus cut down makan pill tu.
But then, mmg ketara la dienye effect. Mmg ketara. Sgt ketara. That is my baby step becoming a girl - years back! Lepas tue, lama-lama, dah pandai sikit, baru la advanced sedikit at the age of 19. But that will be in the other chapter!
Next Chapter 3 : Penangan Diane!
Actually, about those pill, leh dapat kan dengan mudah. Dulu masa me makan all of these, beli je kat farmasi, sometimes abang ittiew siap rekemen kan yang mana lagik sesuai. Price range depends on the product. Siap ada yang cetak rompak lagi.
Masa me start makan dulu, biasa la. Kita start of cos la dengan yang biasa biasa aje kan! Tidak lain tidak bukan Marvelon! DUH! Me masih ingat lagi that was 2 years back! (Wow! It has been 2 years dah! Lama nye! Masa tue me pun tidak kenal Kie lagik kan! Lalalala). Masa tue me masih lagi study in Law Faculty Shah Alam first semester degree student. But kaedahnya dah berani nie, adik adik biasa la kan. Umur 19 years old but dah start bermake-up ke kelas. Kaedahnya tetek dinch ado sume but make up kalah perempuan tulen lain kan! Me no comment sgt!
Masa tu, me duduk serumah kat sec18. Tak nak kalah nie. When the uni give me a room tak mo duduk kan. The room kat hostel tue siap untuk empat org lagi. Masa tu, 4 org tu mewah sgt. And guess hostel mana? PERINDU SUNDEL!!!! kolej Perindu nimacam haeven la to all bapok bapoks! Me dapat lak Perindu 4, blok budak tentera and budak sukan. Aiyooo! Me sungguh stupid! Kalo me ambik memang tak menang tgn but thanks god me tak amik. Kalo tak makin sundal la perangai meks!
What ever la, dengan semangat gigih me sanggup yerk keluar rumah sewa di sec18 tue sejam awal untuk amik Bus Mini kaler Pink (meks suke ittiew kaler suker girang sgt!!) kemudian turun kat Sec2, depan medan makan lama itu or seberang kolej Jati. Lepas tue, dengan with all the books (paham pahamla, buku Law beart sundel!) me kene lintas that big road to seberang jalan, sebaris ngan koleh Jati untuk amik Bus UiTM pula. Masa dalam bus pink itu boleh la ala ala feeling kekwt becos tak ramai org, but dah nak naik itu bus UiTM kene la berebut kan!
Begitu Gigih nye I kan!! Lepas tue, I still remember every Monday I mesti pergi ke farmasi yang sebelah 7-E kat sec18 untuk membeli Marvelon. Even tho that pill was supposed to be eaten sehari sebijik! But me DINCH!!! Setiap hari from the first day me eat that thing, More than once. For the first three month, makan lagi best. Me dah rasa that pill macam nasi. Macam ni tau, Me memang terkenal di fac with my clique after last class of the day aje, terus cabut pergi ke coffee house kat Menara or Kedai Kopi at tasik for tea time. Makan cheese cake la, mocha and just hang out and chill. Makan one slice of cheese cake, makan 2 biji pills. After Lunch, 2 pills. Dah macam makan antibiotik dah. 2 biji setiap kali lepas makan. Macam mana la tak abis duit. Gigih kan?
After a few months, baru la me berperangai seperti manusia sedikit. Sehari me makan 3 pill. Sepapan ada 21 pill, so seminggu la tahan. Tue yang every Monday gi farmasi tu. Mule mule sepapan RM9, and then naik jadi RM10.50 and now, me gi survery harga kat that same farmasi, sudah RM12!!!! HArgh tuih mahal nyew!
But the effect mmg berkesan. Pimples hilang in a week. Nafsu makan astagana ilmaualana. Hanya Tuhan yang tahu betapa kuat makan nye I masa tue. But thanks GOD, my berat tidak naik mendadak. Infact my berat boleh dikatakan maintain (MAINTAIN KE NAIK 5 KG!). But serius shit. Kenaikan berat badan melonjak-lonjak! Tue yang terus cut down makan pill tu.
But then, mmg ketara la dienye effect. Mmg ketara. Sgt ketara. That is my baby step becoming a girl - years back! Lepas tue, lama-lama, dah pandai sikit, baru la advanced sedikit at the age of 19. But that will be in the other chapter!
Next Chapter 3 : Penangan Diane!
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NEW PHONE!
Thursday, October 19
Tidak ku sangka aidilfitri kian menjelang. Rasanya macam baru sahaja berpuasa kan. Macam baru semalam depa dok umumkan kite akan berpose hari Ahad, pejam celik pejam celik, nah! sudah nak raya!Dam dam dum bunyi mercun! But this raya kan, I ras mcm ntah la. happy idak, sedih pung idak! As if tidak ada sebarang perasaan menyambut kedatangan raya aidilfitri nie! Eh ... I tot the topic tulis new phone kan! motif lari entry? hiks!
Begini, Let me tell you a very sad story. As many of you know, that i'm using my 8310 yang agak hazab itu (which me bought it since I lost 6600 dalam teksi!). Me memang tidka dapat nak sangkal yang my 8310 tue sangat la hazab. dengan screen die ala ala retak bagai sume, but itu lah handphone yang me pakai kan .. what to do. Memang ingat nak beli baru, but asyik kuar duit berjoli joli sana sini, macam mana kan?!
But something happen that really made me have to buy a new phone! Hanj sgt tau mende nie berlaku kat meks! begini, to YM's boys all of you pernah datang to my house makan makan masa berbuka last year or at least dtg lepak at my house kan (oh yeah talking bout this, Mummy tanya, tahun nie you guys tak datang ke my house berbuka?), mesti you guys perasan akan the veranda between ruangtamu hall bawah ngan tibgkat atas itu kan?
Cerita die begini, me was sitting down stair tgk tv with Ateh (my sister) and mummy. While her kids, Aiman, Kipan and Kiki (my lovely niece yang Kie dok bawak dukung the whole timelast year, remember!) was upstair palying adn reading (hargh tuih reading!) and suddenly while watching Desperate Housewives (while Daddy, Abang Rijal as lelaki ... me repeat lelaki pergi terawih dekat nearby surau), as all three of us concerntrating at that TV screen, I nampak my phone - walaupun hazab but berguna yer! - jatuh and CRASH from upstair di lantai depan TV ittiew!!!!!
Bayangkan betapa sedihnya my face! And betapa cuaknya uke Ateh tengok kelakuan anak die! But the best part is, All three of the cute devils turun, si Aiman and Kipan (both 7 and 5 years old respectively) point fingers to each other before point finger immediately kat Kiki (which was 2 years old and muke tak bersalah je - so you guys pun leh agak la kan antara the both boysje yang buat!)
Ateh promise to give me money and beli Moto V3i which i memang dah lama tengok.
End of part 1. Start with part 2.
The next day me go to office as usual. and NAH! New promotion for CELCOM user! Me tertarik! Me girang! ME terus daftar no and terus Beli that thing! Walaupun me terpaksa menggunakan number celcom! But what is the thing!
How ... just imagine this phone in all black!
It is handphone BLACK ICE SAMBA limited edition DON movie! Memang cool gile. It is candybar shaped, all balck, with 'BLACK ICE' written below the screen. A Tri Band phone, poly MP3 phone, camera 1.2 MP, FM Radio, Voice Recorder, Internal memory 128MB, GPRS, USB port and banyak lagi for only :
RM199
*with a new registration of Celcom number!
Melertskan offering ittiew! RM199 sajork! including 256 Memory Card occay!!!!! Merasalah me GPRS MMS with all of you after this! lalalala And it also support MP3 player!
Btw, Lea, if you read this entry, for your information, ada handphone baru tau, by new company. Baru masuk mesia but dah lama in Thai. Just imagine the camera of the phone itself is 8MP!!! I'm not sure about the price but lower than 1750 I guess. Tomorrow me nak gi kedai handphone ittiew, which is in Ampwalk and survey survey new phone.!
p/s: Lea, kotak phone Black Ice nie melerts sgt yerk! Nanti me snappy nak show to you nah!
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What a day to start a new chapter in this blog (blog yang mungkin dinch ado pembaca, HikS!). This story will be all about me, my past, a 24-hours-dragqueen.
In this first chapter, I will talk about my own definition of myself (matilah puji diri emlambung kan! janji bakul tu terangkat - ko ado? hiks!- No lah! Ko hengat me ni idak ada kije ke nak puji diri sendiri?).
There are alot of word that can being used by people around us to descirbe 'people like us (PLU)'. Ada yang kata we are dragqueen, BAPOK, NYAH, NYIEEEEH, PONDAN, GAYBOY, KHALID, dan banyak lagi lah. Dari yang kelakar, to yang sungguh menyakitkan hati. Tapi ada jugak dalam banyak banyak tue, yang define ourselves, to gays and dragqueen as GTPL - or full name die Golongan Tidak Pecah Lobang. Confirm yang cakap tue either laki kite semua or kite sendiri kan! hiks!
Kalau kite tengok in dictionary especially in MERRIAM-WEBSTER, a dragqueen can be deifne as a male homosexual who dresses as a woman especially for comic or theatrical effect. (Theatrical katanya! - matilah fifi!). As the word transgender, the definition in the Webster is having personal characteristics (as transsexuality or transvestism ) that transcend traditional gender boundaries and corresponding sexual norms (matilah lelaki bernaluri perempuan!). And the other word is homosexual which mean of, relating to, or characterized by a tendency to direct sexual desire toward another of the same sex.
Dengan erti kata lain (let me simplified everything nah! Me takut my reader confius dengan defintion melampau given by merriam-webster itu kan). Drag queen ialah seorang gayboy yang berpakaian wanita. Mereka boleh berkemungkinan memakan pil hormon (as in for me - used to! NO MORE!!) or tidak mengambil pil langsung. Clear? A transgender on the other hand is seorang lelaki yang bernaluri kan perempuan tetapi tidak semesti nye berpakian wanita a.k.a drag (matilah sekarang baru me tahu adik adik also transgender!). Last one homosexual ialah lelaki yang meminati lelaki tetapi tak semestinya bernaluri wanita, ada yang very maskulin but at the end, menongeng juga, kan!
But kaedahnya .. ada sesiapa leh jawab bile yang drag bagai cantik bagai, cucuk sana, berkolegen sana, bersusuk sini .. at the end, sekali TOP? opps! Me dont mentioned any names here! lalala
Even tho, this online dictionary give alot of definiton yang berlainandan membawa maksud berlainan, to me, I tetap rasa the only definiton that described and define these three group is human. Tul tak? Walau macam mana kulit rupa, rupa paras, berapa cucuk in ur dagu, what is hair colour, tetap maintain human. Kelarla Viviana's, Lea's, Ginger's, mine or any of us punya tangan tetap kuar darah merah sama as the straight people. (but me guess any of you tikam me in the dada, putih kot yg kuar - well, MAHSURI! lalalala or issit susu tepung beku?)
Kan! if you guys dengar ittiew denyutan jantung ku, sama dengan denyutan jantungmu jua. (matilah scene cartoon Tarzan and Jane). So at the end of the dat, at the end of the line, kita semua adalah serupa sahaja. Yang membezakan kita adalah color kulit, wig, highlight rambut dan sebegainya. Tetapi deep inside our body, behind those beautiful and ugly faces, tolak kuak all kolegen and susuk, is still the same white ugly skulls. Our body still dibuat dari DNA berformula yang sama. Dinch tiada perbezaan.
That is my definition. Here I bukan nak mengagungkan the right of the third gender (Ko gile nak lawan MFC?) or what. Just nak bagitau, nak berkongsi pengalaman me living as a full 24-7 dragqueen. But whatis the point me membebel nanti about my experience tapi my readers dinch tahu the definition kan?
Next - Chapter 2:Present Me Wrtting 'bout Begining of My Past!
In this first chapter, I will talk about my own definition of myself (matilah puji diri emlambung kan! janji bakul tu terangkat - ko ado? hiks!- No lah! Ko hengat me ni idak ada kije ke nak puji diri sendiri?).
There are alot of word that can being used by people around us to descirbe 'people like us (PLU)'. Ada yang kata we are dragqueen, BAPOK, NYAH, NYIEEEEH, PONDAN, GAYBOY, KHALID, dan banyak lagi lah. Dari yang kelakar, to yang sungguh menyakitkan hati. Tapi ada jugak dalam banyak banyak tue, yang define ourselves, to gays and dragqueen as GTPL - or full name die Golongan Tidak Pecah Lobang. Confirm yang cakap tue either laki kite semua or kite sendiri kan! hiks!
Kalau kite tengok in dictionary especially in MERRIAM-WEBSTER, a dragqueen can be deifne as a male homosexual who dresses as a woman especially for comic or theatrical effect. (Theatrical katanya! - matilah fifi!). As the word transgender, the definition in the Webster is having personal characteristics (as transsexuality or transvestism ) that transcend traditional gender boundaries and corresponding sexual norms (matilah lelaki bernaluri perempuan!). And the other word is homosexual which mean of, relating to, or characterized by a tendency to direct sexual desire toward another of the same sex.
Dengan erti kata lain (let me simplified everything nah! Me takut my reader confius dengan defintion melampau given by merriam-webster itu kan). Drag queen ialah seorang gayboy yang berpakaian wanita. Mereka boleh berkemungkinan memakan pil hormon (as in for me - used to! NO MORE!!) or tidak mengambil pil langsung. Clear? A transgender on the other hand is seorang lelaki yang bernaluri kan perempuan tetapi tidak semesti nye berpakian wanita a.k.a drag (matilah sekarang baru me tahu adik adik also transgender!). Last one homosexual ialah lelaki yang meminati lelaki tetapi tak semestinya bernaluri wanita, ada yang very maskulin but at the end, menongeng juga, kan!
But kaedahnya .. ada sesiapa leh jawab bile yang drag bagai cantik bagai, cucuk sana, berkolegen sana, bersusuk sini .. at the end, sekali TOP? opps! Me dont mentioned any names here! lalala
Even tho, this online dictionary give alot of definiton yang berlainandan membawa maksud berlainan, to me, I tetap rasa the only definiton that described and define these three group is human. Tul tak? Walau macam mana kulit rupa, rupa paras, berapa cucuk in ur dagu, what is hair colour, tetap maintain human. Kelarla Viviana's, Lea's, Ginger's, mine or any of us punya tangan tetap kuar darah merah sama as the straight people. (but me guess any of you tikam me in the dada, putih kot yg kuar - well, MAHSURI! lalalala or issit susu tepung beku?)
Kan! if you guys dengar ittiew denyutan jantung ku, sama dengan denyutan jantungmu jua. (matilah scene cartoon Tarzan and Jane). So at the end of the dat, at the end of the line, kita semua adalah serupa sahaja. Yang membezakan kita adalah color kulit, wig, highlight rambut dan sebegainya. Tetapi deep inside our body, behind those beautiful and ugly faces, tolak kuak all kolegen and susuk, is still the same white ugly skulls. Our body still dibuat dari DNA berformula yang sama. Dinch tiada perbezaan.
That is my definition. Here I bukan nak mengagungkan the right of the third gender (Ko gile nak lawan MFC?) or what. Just nak bagitau, nak berkongsi pengalaman me living as a full 24-7 dragqueen. But whatis the point me membebel nanti about my experience tapi my readers dinch tahu the definition kan?
Next - Chapter 2:Present Me Wrtting 'bout Begining of My Past!
Labels: Once I Was A Girl
posted by Isis Natasha @ 17:37 3 Comments
NEW SECTION - ONCE I WAS A GIRL
Wednesday, October 18
That's it! Sempena raya tahun ini, I rasa biarlah I berterus terang kepada semua. Tidak mahu ada sebarang tirai yang memencilkan diri I dari I dari pembaca (kaedahnya ada pembaca ke kan?). Tidak mahu ada sebraang pelindung. Tidak mahu ada sebarang topeng yang mengasingkan diriku dari kalian.
To me, as a blogger (even tho tak la semua org dok baca my blog kan .. even I can say that my blog tidaklah dieketahui org pung! Yang tahu pung just close friends! - which I guess this story would be a basi one!), when you already have a blog and you have the responsibility to maintain and update it - kalau tak mampu everyday, at least jangan la sampai berabuk, berkulat, bersawang bagai - yopu have to fulfill it. And to me I already set my mind that i want this blog to be something that talk 'bout my life, as my journal, as a living proof that I'm alive.
But however, eversince, this blog (I mean my blog la kan!), only talk about the life of Isis Natasha. Not the other half personality of mine. (jeng jeng jeng! Other half? jeng jeng jeng!). And it only talk about the present life of mine.
I got this idea masa I tgh driving from KL to Shah Alam to send Yaya back other house in Sec 18. And I tought it would be something special and meaningful and I hope it will complete me in order to accept me for who I am and for what I am (Lea .. hang rasa mcm hang pernah dengar tak ayat ittiew? lalalala - Sara, me pinjam ayat hang nah!).
Here is how I gonna do it. I will write chapter by chapter (Lea, me pinjam konsep "I Was Once A Showgirl" tau!!) and I gonna wrote every important details or every important events that happen during my past. And it will only be about my life as a 24 hours dragqueen.
The first chapter is still going to be out real soon!
Labels: Once I Was A Girl
posted by Isis Natasha @ 07:15 1 Comments
Just now, I log in my friendster ID and check all my messages and all, suddenyl i found this bulletine. The title is "During Sex ... Continue". Ala macam game yang sambung sambung tu. So I pun eagerly la open kan, terbahak bahak me baca all those song title after add the phrase "during sex" at the end of the title of song.
Game die macam ni. You just just add je the phrase "during sex" at the end of the song's title. Example : title lagu Saloma, Aidilfitri Hari Mulia kan for example, will be Aidilfitri Hari Mulia During Sex. Hah! Macam tue.
So, korang baca la sendiri title-title yang terpikirkan oleh kawan kawan I in friendster list! Memang mencerminkan betapa kreatif nye remeja Malaysia! kekeke
During Sex
Message:
Here's the rules - Add your name to thebottomalong with the song that you're listening to right now or the last song you listened to, followed by "during sex.
Pass this bulletin along as long as you can copy and paste it into a new bulletin .. dont press reply!
wanRot - you're too good(to me baby) duringsex...yeahh!!
-nYUn- : tokyo drift during sex [buh??]
dyana - valentine during sex.
niena - faithless during sex...hahaha (macam mana? faithless katanya! KAYU kah?)
Waniduckie- Kenangan terindah during sex(Ahhh...)
KaRL - Cepat-Cepat (JacVictor) during sex.... (matilah cepat cepat!!!)
Adib - Dead men tell no tales during sex
Razman - YMCA during sex....(hmmm...) >>> (new position ke? YMCA during sex?)
Syed - Menaruh Harapan during sex (zaitonSameon ye) ... >> (seriously I like this one a lot! Menaruh Harapan during sex katanya!!!!! bangga kak Eton!)
RaZali - Gerenti Beres during sex (KRU)
Kamehamehaa - SHE BANGS during sex(WILLIAM HUNG)
Mr. Zack - Terlalu Indah (cokelat) during sex..
aZu - Sexyback during sex (wow!!)
arina- kenangan yg terindah during sex (samsons)
Ez-zad- Love To See You Cry during sex (enriqueiglesias) ... >> (Hanj!! Love To See You Cry During Sex!!!! Wakakakaka .. double meaning sgt!!!)
Arni - Hilang Dalam Terang during sex (Search)
Hafidz - Ghostfaced DURING SEX (The Dead 60s) ... >> (Jejants ni fuck sapa .. ghostfaced?)
Labels: Relationship, Sex Education
posted by Isis Natasha @ 06:53 0 Comments
Symptom "Megat"
Sunday, October 15
Kebelakangan ini, kepada mereka yang rajin untuk berchating dekat IRC and YM especially (not to point fingers - it is obviously true!) Kie, Najib, Kerry, Me, Dino and Kak G's twin, Katak, mesti korang semua pernah mengalami or at least mengetahui akan symptom "Megat" yang semakin berleluasa.Tudia ... apakah itu? Mesti ramai yang tertanya-tanya apakah itu symptom "Megat" kan? Symptom ini memang boleh dianggap sebagai symptom yang agak merbahaya, semakin berleluasa dan juga satu symtpom yang membuatkan I rasa nak muntah dah ludah berkahak. But the point is, what is symptom "Megat" ini?
Symptom "Megat" atau pun lebih dikenali sebagai symtom "Adam" (diperingatkan sebutan "Adam" bukan lah Adam, tetapi "Ae-Dem" - itulah cara menyebut nama sampingan symtom ini) boleh didefinisikan sebagai symptom propah, symptom menipo ataupun symptom hanjeng.
Untuk mengetahui atau lebih jelas akan definisi ini dengan lebih jelas, biarlah Isis bercerita situasi yang tersirat ataupun kejadian yang berlaku sehingga tertimbulnya symtom ini.
Adalah dua hari yang lepas, Isis chatting la dekat dalam satu channel IRC ni. As usual la kan, untuk 'mennambahkan kenala" (HARG TUIH menambahkan kenalan - nak panjangkan lagi list katanya , baiarlah puasa kan! meluap luap rasanya! lalala - Bak kata Lea : SEXY ASS), me pun click la dekat nick nick yang boleh dikatakan cando dan meletop. Banyak la nick yang ada, merepek pun ada.
Antara nick yang ada ialah : LelakiSukaDiPukul, Aku-Melacur-Sikit2, Taufik21, BtOM_Buhsan, BtomBosanSedihMenanti (ni lagi tak tahan!! - hang tunggu! Me wat entry khasuntuk you occay! Nick melerts sundel~), Adam22, MegatHidayat21 dan banyak lagi.
Lepas tu, I pun terus la berchatting seperti biasa sepert berikut, siap bagi dialog nie, but unfortunately my nick tue i kene pangkahkan (untuk menjamin kesedian periuk nasi).
[Myself] :
[Myself] :
[Myself] :
Saja je nak wat ala ala surprise! Untuk mengetahui bagaimana rupa paras MegatHidayat21, click
Bagaimana? Nicknama ala ala pemuda harapan kampung, ala ala mamat cando Melayu terakhir ... mcm comel comel je. Sekali nah! Astgafirullah hal azim. Isis hanya mampu untuk bertawakal dan beristigfar! Gerun!!
Oleh itu, kepada semua, berhati hatilah dengan symtom "Megat" ini. Oh ya, Before tadi awal awal me ada cakap symptom ini is also known as symptom "Ae-Dem" and symptom "Taufik" kan? Click at these nickname to know who is the person, the chatters! Adam21 and Taufik21.
**lari pecut tanpa menoleh kebelakang, kalau toleh pun lite-lite!
Labels: Life
posted by Isis Natasha @ 17:46 2 Comments
BORED IN THE OFFICE~
Saturday, October 14
back in the office!
Bored in the office as usual, the call queue is not very high.
time : 4:13 pm - another roughly 3 hours to go for breaking fast!
Call queu pun tidak tinggi. The laste call was at 3:59 pm. Mungkin for the time being Celcom tidak ada network failure or any problem as usual kot! Wah!! I'm so surprise la!
Bored bored bored! Hari ini sabtu, Kie, Kakak, Kak G, Norm, Bibi nak gi makan (berbuka pose i mean! Memandai je Isis kata depa tak pose!) kat luar. If i'm not mistaken Lot 10, eh hold on! Today ke tomorrow tak tau! But still tak leh nak join, me kerja petang esok til 2 in the morning.
But what ever it is, I'm glad that today I finished my shift around 12.45 and that mean I can join them at DownUnder, a new club in town. Already made plan to meet up with them and Arezeo and all of the others, I mean Ted, Shaft and all.
By the way, semalam dah due kali i jumper Ben after his surgery and kesian nyew. Asyik sakit je. Darling, I hope u get well soon nah! Lepas hang dah occay sikit, leh la ronda ronda jauh sikit!
Oh yes! Semalam I pergi rumah Ted. Nasib baik i datang awal. Usher pung ada. Rindu ngan usher. Rindu sangat sangat! Sejak die dah start practical aritue dah jarang dah jumper. And ada Mama, Ben, Ron, Ted, Shaft, Usher and Kast (first time jumper kast!). Sayang, Naim tak de. Naim kene cat rumah since kakak die kawin! RIndu gak ngan Naim.
Lepas tue around (motif tak de call masuk pung nie .. dah nak dekat sejam nie!) 12.30 in the morning, kiteorg madeplan to go to kak ara and before that, my car, ada Ted, Usher and shaft pergi ke Tmn Melur to fetch Reza Ehsan. And Nazim call me and after the cll finished, I said " Take Care, Love you" as usualy when i said goodbye to all of my frens. Perlu ke itu menjadi satu issue? In fact me kiss Kie, Kak G, Bibi pung me said "Take Care, Lov You" - That mean me also tasty kat depa ke? aiyoooo!!
back in the office!
Bored in the office as usual, the call queue is not very high.
time : 4:13 pm - another roughly 3 hours to go for breaking fast!
Call queu pun tidak tinggi. The laste call was at 3:59 pm. Mungkin for the time being Celcom tidak ada network failure or any problem as usual kot! Wah!! I'm so surprise la!
Bored bored bored! Hari ini sabtu, Kie, Kakak, Kak G, Norm, Bibi nak gi makan (berbuka pose i mean! Memandai je Isis kata depa tak pose!) kat luar. If i'm not mistaken Lot 10, eh hold on! Today ke tomorrow tak tau! But still tak leh nak join, me kerja petang esok til 2 in the morning.
But what ever it is, I'm glad that today I finished my shift around 12.45 and that mean I can join them at DownUnder, a new club in town. Already made plan to meet up with them and Arezeo and all of the others, I mean Ted, Shaft and all.
By the way, semalam dah due kali i jumper Ben after his surgery and kesian nyew. Asyik sakit je. Darling, I hope u get well soon nah! Lepas hang dah occay sikit, leh la ronda ronda jauh sikit!
Oh yes! Semalam I pergi rumah Ted. Nasib baik i datang awal. Usher pung ada. Rindu ngan usher. Rindu sangat sangat! Sejak die dah start practical aritue dah jarang dah jumper. And ada Mama, Ben, Ron, Ted, Shaft, Usher and Kast (first time jumper kast!). Sayang, Naim tak de. Naim kene cat rumah since kakak die kawin! RIndu gak ngan Naim.
Lepas tue around (motif tak de call masuk pung nie .. dah nak dekat sejam nie!) 12.30 in the morning, kiteorg madeplan to go to kak ara and before that, my car, ada Ted, Usher and shaft pergi ke Tmn Melur to fetch Reza Ehsan. And Nazim call me and after the cll finished, I said " Take Care, Love you" as usualy when i said goodbye to all of my frens. Perlu ke itu menjadi satu issue? In fact me kiss Kie, Kak G, Bibi pung me said "Take Care, Lov You" - That mean me also tasty kat depa ke? aiyoooo!!
I glance from my window in my office, and Astagfirullah Hal Azim, jerebu makin teruk. I'm scared. Tidak pernah jadi mcm nie sebelum nie. Me terbayangkan my family - Daddy, Mummy, Akak, Abg Syed, their kids esp Jaja, Ateh, Abg Rijal, all theirs devils ; Kiki especially. All my friends - Kie, Bibi, Kak G, Kakak, Syed, Fifi, Lea, Dylan, Mark, Babyposh, Comel and others (Naim, Nazim, Ted, Ben, Usher). How can we survived in this haze. Scared kalau ada yang jatuh sakit ke apa ke?
And then my fikiran terbayangkan all my lovely ones who had been involved and change my life. How are they doing agaknya skunk nie!
Ntah kenapa tetibe me terpikir kan Lee Novothy. Mungkin sebab die selalu aje jenguk and also comment blog meks kot. Mcm nak tahu je jerebu ke idak kat London? Erm ...
Bored again!
And then my fikiran terbayangkan all my lovely ones who had been involved and change my life. How are they doing agaknya skunk nie!
Ntah kenapa tetibe me terpikir kan Lee Novothy. Mungkin sebab die selalu aje jenguk and also comment blog meks kot. Mcm nak tahu je jerebu ke idak kat London? Erm ...
Bored again!
Bored in the office as usual, the call queue is not very high.
time : 4:13 pm - another roughly 3 hours to go for breaking fast!
Call queu pun tidak tinggi. The laste call was at 3:59 pm. Mungkin for the time being Celcom tidak ada network failure or any problem as usual kot! Wah!! I'm so surprise la!
Bored bored bored! Hari ini sabtu, Kie, Kakak, Kak G, Norm, Bibi nak gi makan (berbuka pose i mean! Memandai je Isis kata depa tak pose!) kat luar. If i'm not mistaken Lot 10, eh hold on! Today ke tomorrow tak tau! But still tak leh nak join, me kerja petang esok til 2 in the morning.
But what ever it is, I'm glad that today I finished my shift around 12.45 and that mean I can join them at DownUnder, a new club in town. Already made plan to meet up with them and Arezeo and all of the others, I mean Ted, Shaft and all.
By the way, semalam dah due kali i jumper Ben after his surgery and kesian nyew. Asyik sakit je. Darling, I hope u get well soon nah! Lepas hang dah occay sikit, leh la ronda ronda jauh sikit!
Oh yes! Semalam I pergi rumah Ted. Nasib baik i datang awal. Usher pung ada. Rindu ngan usher. Rindu sangat sangat! Sejak die dah start practical aritue dah jarang dah jumper. And ada Mama, Ben, Ron, Ted, Shaft, Usher and Kast (first time jumper kast!). Sayang, Naim tak de. Naim kene cat rumah since kakak die kawin! RIndu gak ngan Naim.
Lepas tue around (motif tak de call masuk pung nie .. dah nak dekat sejam nie!) 12.30 in the morning, kiteorg madeplan to go to kak ara and before that, my car, ada Ted, Usher and shaft pergi ke Tmn Melur to fetch Reza Ehsan. And Nazim call me and after the cll finished, I said " Take Care, Love you" as usualy when i said goodbye to all of my frens. Perlu ke itu menjadi satu issue? In fact me kiss Kie, Kak G, Bibi pung me said "Take Care, Lov You" - That mean me also tasty kat depa ke? aiyoooo!!
back in the office!
Bored in the office as usual, the call queue is not very high.
time : 4:13 pm - another roughly 3 hours to go for breaking fast!
Call queu pun tidak tinggi. The laste call was at 3:59 pm. Mungkin for the time being Celcom tidak ada network failure or any problem as usual kot! Wah!! I'm so surprise la!
Bored bored bored! Hari ini sabtu, Kie, Kakak, Kak G, Norm, Bibi nak gi makan (berbuka pose i mean! Memandai je Isis kata depa tak pose!) kat luar. If i'm not mistaken Lot 10, eh hold on! Today ke tomorrow tak tau! But still tak leh nak join, me kerja petang esok til 2 in the morning.
But what ever it is, I'm glad that today I finished my shift around 12.45 and that mean I can join them at DownUnder, a new club in town. Already made plan to meet up with them and Arezeo and all of the others, I mean Ted, Shaft and all.
By the way, semalam dah due kali i jumper Ben after his surgery and kesian nyew. Asyik sakit je. Darling, I hope u get well soon nah! Lepas hang dah occay sikit, leh la ronda ronda jauh sikit!
Oh yes! Semalam I pergi rumah Ted. Nasib baik i datang awal. Usher pung ada. Rindu ngan usher. Rindu sangat sangat! Sejak die dah start practical aritue dah jarang dah jumper. And ada Mama, Ben, Ron, Ted, Shaft, Usher and Kast (first time jumper kast!). Sayang, Naim tak de. Naim kene cat rumah since kakak die kawin! RIndu gak ngan Naim.
Lepas tue around (motif tak de call masuk pung nie .. dah nak dekat sejam nie!) 12.30 in the morning, kiteorg madeplan to go to kak ara and before that, my car, ada Ted, Usher and shaft pergi ke Tmn Melur to fetch Reza Ehsan. And Nazim call me and after the cll finished, I said " Take Care, Love you" as usualy when i said goodbye to all of my frens. Perlu ke itu menjadi satu issue? In fact me kiss Kie, Kak G, Bibi pung me said "Take Care, Lov You" - That mean me also tasty kat depa ke? aiyoooo!!
I glance from my window in my office, and Astagfirullah Hal Azim, jerebu makin teruk. I'm scared. Tidak pernah jadi mcm nie sebelum nie. Me terbayangkan my family - Daddy, Mummy, Akak, Abg Syed, their kids esp Jaja, Ateh, Abg Rijal, all theirs devils ; Kiki especially. All my friends - Kie, Bibi, Kak G, Kakak, Syed, Fifi, Lea, Dylan, Mark, Babyposh, Comel and others (Naim, Nazim, Ted, Ben, Usher). How can we survived in this haze. Scared kalau ada yang jatuh sakit ke apa ke?
And then my fikiran terbayangkan all my lovely ones who had been involved and change my life. How are they doing agaknya skunk nie!
Ntah kenapa tetibe me terpikir kan Lee Novothy. Mungkin sebab die selalu aje jenguk and also comment blog meks kot. Mcm nak tahu je jerebu ke idak kat London? Erm ...
Bored again!
And then my fikiran terbayangkan all my lovely ones who had been involved and change my life. How are they doing agaknya skunk nie!
Ntah kenapa tetibe me terpikir kan Lee Novothy. Mungkin sebab die selalu aje jenguk and also comment blog meks kot. Mcm nak tahu je jerebu ke idak kat London? Erm ...
Bored again!
Labels: Blogging
posted by Isis Natasha @ 16:54 1 Comments
ANTARA FANTASIA DAN REALITY : RATU TOLAK KERETA?
Friday, October 13
Heyyyyooooo!
Hiks for those yang dah baca my pembuka bicara pung mesti sudah tahu pasal sapa I nak tulis kan! Hiks! Tentulah tentang One of the Serdang Idol Artist - Intan Ezlyn!
Hiks! Frankly speaking, me sudah lama tak jumper bersua muke ngan Intan. Last time chat kat YM pung sudah berkurun rasanya!
Semalam, masa kat office, me was browsing through the net, (yerla tak byk kije today kan!) and ter perasan la yang Intan Ezlyn telah pung memasuki blog i yang tidak sebeberapa nie. Hiks Thanks uols masuk page meks! Page uols asyik pinkish jew.. dah macam my hair dah!
Oh yes!!! Talking about pinkish pinkish, me want to tell all of you, sempena Raya Aidilfitri kali ini, me telah mewarnakan my frindge kaler pink! Fuh! Feminin sangat rasanya! kekekeke (biasalah ... janji terangkat bakul meks!). And lately, ntah la kenapa, me mcm ada hobby baru!
Kalo Lea's new hobby kumpul kotak, mine is kumpul belt with big buckle. I have dah 3. One kaler putih with a big rectangular buckle, with penny and pence embros kat atas die. The other two, jeng jeng jeng, big buckles bentuk CROWN full with DIAMONDS! How? And me wear all these three pergi office! Boleh?
New hobby, new songs ... Uols sudah dengar kah lagu baru from Misha Omar? Nafas Cinta .. ciptaan Sifu M.Nasir. Melerts sgt! Lagu inilah yang meks letak akt blog ini now. Ala yang the one uols dengar sekarang ni. Or you guys leh dengar lagu itu in my myspace, www.myspace.com/isisnatasha. Melerts kan! Lagu ala ala World sgt! Me rasa bukan mcm Misha Omar yang nyanyi. Terngiang-ngiang di telinga I lagu ini sentiasa uols! berhantu nyew! Hiks!
Cakap pasal Misha Omar, Teringat pada gigi. Teringat pada gigi, me terignat kat kawan meks. Die nie dengar cerita tgh sibuk wat assignmetn die, which is short filem. Nak kerja ngan Astro la katakan! Melerts nyew! ME also dengar story yang die ni ada la couple baru. Me bukan lah apa. Disini, ingin saje mengucapkan SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU, Semoga Tidak Pecah Lobang Kehendak nyew! **You know what I mean kan!
Seterusnya, biarlah bende ini terkeluar dari mulut I, or I mena dari blog I sendiri I tidak mahu mende ini kuar dari blog orang lain ... kerna bimbang akan tokok tambah atau pun kepropahan yang bakal dikeluarkan. At least di blog I, I boleh la tapis dan tapis yer segala keburukan nyew!
Cerita nye begini, adalah sorang Ratu nie, telah pung menelefon I ajak pergi ke downtown Danau Kota untuk membeli beberapa sedikti keperluan harian. Me membeli belt buckle CROWN satu, while she (or he also don't know!) beli jam, topi, pouch and few other things. Lepas dah habis membeli, window shopping, and tanaygn muke bagai, kiterorg telah pung nekad untuk pergi ke Mali di Tmn Bunga Raya, pergi makan nasi lemak la kaedahnya. Disamping itu boleh la berjumpe ngan salah sorang YM-ners, Dino Teddy Whoah Pukinawati. So, dengan penuh confidensinye, kami berdua telah pung catwalk sejauh alam ke kereta, and start the enjin and stuff. Me perasan la ittiew jarum minyak sudah menunjukkan kaler oren, and cakap, Lets singgah ke stesen minyak depan itu, beli minyak dulu, nanti habis susah lak! She fine with it.
Sekali bru 3 min membawa kereta, lagi 300 meter ke stesen minyak, suddenly, kete meks henjut 2 kali and stop in the MIDDLE of the road! In the midlee yer! In the middle! I repeat for the third time : IN THE MIDLE OF THE ROAD! Kalo di tepi tak pe la jugak kan ... Ni in the midle uols!
So nak tak nak, terpaksalah tolak ittiew kereta! And guess sapa yang tolak ittiew kereta? BUKAN MEKS tetapi RATU itu instead! MAtilah me pose dlm kereta saje! Me tengok itu Ratu masa tu, pakai 3 quaters pants tau, dah naik berotot dah kaki yang separa feminin itu! Matilah me kene carut kalo lepas nie die tidak menang Miss Best Leg katanya!!!!
Dah la die penat menolak kereta meks ke seberang jalan dengan segala kekuatan jantan die, now, terpaksa pulak berJALAN kaki ke stesen minyak which is 500 meter away! lagilapenat minah itu! kekekekeke. Sian die. Tuhan murka sgt! kekekekeke. Tapi the best part is, masa nak jalan tue kene la patah balik tu the bazzaria tau, sempat lagi nie, dok jinjing 2 botol miyak petrol, kiterorg buat one round pusing tgk barang lagik! So kiterorg telah pun balik bercatwalk ke arah kereta, lepas tue boleh pulak banyak la anjing anjing liar yang menyalak! Rasa dah macam tumpuan pesta sgt masa tue! may be cos Ratu tue pec lobs sikit kot (matilah tetap nak maintain my status kan! HAMPUN MAK HAYAM! I tak nak kene calit ngan lumpur yer!)
Dah penat berjalan, tuang tonggak itu botol dlm my tank, both of us pung bergegas masuk ke dalam kereta. Start the enjin, DINCH mahu start nie ... Me dah tekan minyak banyak kali pun dinch start! aiyoooo! How!!! Last effort kata Ratu tue, Me sempat ebrselawat abag, pusing sajork itu kunci, NAH! Terus Start! Miracle kan!!
Labels: Friendship, Life
posted by Isis Natasha @ 00:05 5 Comments
FRIENDS : SOMETHING YOU'LL BRING TO GRAVE
Thursday, October 12
Kepada sesiapa yang membaca title itu pun sudah boleh agak akan topik yang kana dibentangkan. Actually persoanlly I believe the word "Friendship" can bring thousand of definitions. Kan?
Memang tidak boleh diakui, me ada banyak kawan (bukan nak riak takbur or what, but to me, almost everyone is a friend in my heart). Budak YM, Bloggers, Clubbing clique, banyak lah. Kawan yang berjumpe disana, yang kenal disini.
Dan ramai jugak yang bekas kawan. Bekas kawan lepas tue kawan balik. Bekas bestfrind now light light. Bekas bestfriend but tak rapat. Bekas bestfriend but now dinch kenal langsung. Bekas kawan but now nak ludah je pictures die ... Oops! (me didn't mention any names!!)
But in the end, to me everybody is a friend. Becos I knew, apart of my family, they are the one yang membentuk peribadi dan personality I (matilah tuding jari to my fren ayng ajar to be like this right now kan! kekekeke).
Bab bab kawan kawan and then gaduh, to me it is a small thing. Memang masa kite dok gado berperang, tarik wig, dok baling pinggan, baling hanbag, calit muke ngan lumpur, kite rasa hal tue besar sgt. But from my previous experience,m this things yang nourish and let us knew the meaning of friendship, kan?
Like what I said to a wise Lady once a upon a time, well :
"As a human being, I believe that everything give by God is a gift. and so do one thing called friendship. As a humble servant to Him, we do encounter a few test, examination from Him from time to time. And I would personally believe the darkest age of that particular period as one of them. As Isis Natasha I have overcome the period full with dignity, pride along with new lesson and experience and not to forget a new deifiniton of friendship to be taken to grave"
Memang Isis mengaku, I ada buat banyak orang sentap previously, but hey, without all those gado gado and stuff, kite tidak akan tahu keburukan kita kan?
And thne, without bermaaf-maafan kita tidak akan sedar betapa kite sebenarnya mempunyai kawan yang sungguh melerts kata org! Bak kata pepatah melayu lama , "Air yang dicincang, takkan putus uols!"
Labels: Friendship
posted by Isis Natasha @ 04:45 1 Comments
PONDAN VS STRAIGHT GUYS MAIN BOLA?
Saturday, October 7
Korang pernah tahu tak ahy tak pernah tgk mak nyah or gayboy lembut bermain bola di tengah tengah hari buta or dikala petang di padang padang bola? But me baru sajork jumpe clip nie and believe me, kalau ada gayboy mcm nie dok nari, main bola mcm ni kat padang Jalan Duta, me confrim!!!!!!! dah tak der budak volley but instead sume budak gi main bola occay! OURTEAM katanya!!! ENJOY!!! (pose ahngpa batal bukan salah meks nah!!)
Labels: Life
posted by Isis Natasha @ 05:33 2 Comments
SUPERMODEL!
Friday, October 6
I heard that next Thursday would be the last heat for Mis Supermodel Blueboy. Seriously, it do recall lot of sweet momentoes. Last year I manage to go up till the finals. Even tho i do not win any title, but I am proud of myself (Angkat bakul sendiri sgt, tapi yang penting dan pasti, BAKUL TERANGKAT! me dont care!) . Just imagine, I am the only gayboy drag yang ke final against all these beautiful (not beutifool as the previous entry) contestant. Yerla ada yang beroperate bawah, silikon breast sume la. N then sekali, me the only one kat sana, yang dok kepit tak lepas, gel-free-bra salah pasang kat meja siap no 2, inthe midle of Lily Wong and Kak Rose. Tercampak segala mala!
Then, this year, someone asked me, "kenapa tak masuk Miss SUpermodel BB?". Frankly speaking, i tak tau pung bile mende ni abis, i tot lama lagi so leh la masuk lambat lambat. Sekali tup tup, this thursday. 7 days to go. Planning nak masuk la. Sekali, mummy cakap, "G, this thursday kalo boleh balik awal nah. Ada makan makan sikit". I was in my heart, chit! So terpaksa la said farewell sajork kat ittiew idea.
I was browsing through the net to have a look at some idea from the west, until i found something from ANTM season 7. Menangis sundel!!!!
Nangis tak? Kan!! Merasalah, Isis pung nak try wat la. Dah tanya dah pung my fren yg expert nak godang wiggy untuk dpt lebih kurang yg macam pictures nie!
Labels: tiada motif
posted by Isis Natasha @ 08:27 0 Comments
BLOG BARU? by a mysterious blogger!
Thursday, October 5
HOLLA!
Balik aje dari NZ cury house selepas beberapa jam melangut tak de kerja dengan Vivianna dan juga Najib Shah, Isis pung terus la online sebaik sahaj tibe dirumah. Mula-mula, bukak youtube la kan as usual, tgk ashwariya rai or anythign yang kelakar, and then terus on YM.
Tibe tibe ZESTTTT! (bukan zestgemuk yew!!! Hanya sekadar satu anotasi suara latar untuk mempertunjukkan pop up pribvate msg) dari DIVA AGUNG, VIVIANNA LAYOLA KINSLEY atau nama Islamnya, VIVIANNA ABDULLAH LEE, Miss Selangor/Malaysia 2006. Satu-satunya peserta bukan melayu yang berjaya memecahkan tradisi masyarakat cina untuk mewakili negeri Selangor Darul Ehsan (matilah dengan restu Sultan Idris dan KuYah).
Die bagilah one link to a blog. Let me uote nah! " http://kaka-cantik.blogspot.com ". At first I was bursting laugh kempot la baca nama blog tue. Nope bukan nak carut blogger tue tak cantik. BUKAN! Tak pernah terlintas terdetik di lubuk hati I nie (sebenarnya, me also don't know who is the blogger ... very mysterious peeps!).
At first I ingatkan it is kerja one of my friends la, (for those yang kenal I, mesti la perasan kan my friends including me macam mana perangai kan!) but last last tup tup NAN ADO yang ngaku. I was pelik bin ajaib la kan. So Vivi kata pergi la tgk, me pung click la twice ... erh silap three time kat address tue.
Bukak-bukak ada ambar kuali dulu. I was like? Apakah entry yang memerlukan kuali. Lagi la curious kan ... As many of you know, me kan jarang and susah nak baca blog bertulis nie (padahal I guess, my blog nie la yang byk sekali bertuli, DINCH ado gambar) so dengan nak tak nak pung membaca la.
I was completely out of SHOCK!!! Motif nama I and nama VIVI ado kat dlm tue. Including nama Ratna and Sara. Erm .. apa lagik! Citer pasal the most controversial issue la - MISS MALAYSIA 2006.
Occay, here, I'm not going to comment on what she said or written. Bcos to me, in a pageant every single person/contestant have the same percentage to win/grab the title and the grand prize offered by the organizer. But all of these chances will go down deep into the weel once some party changed into a materialistic demon, who posses the power of Selfhappiness greater than Humanity. And I do believe that every single person involve in the pageant, the juries, audience, contestant and ME, had become the chess (me nak amik the queen leyh tak?) where the demon become the master mind. Control the moves into their intention using their invisible hands.
And for those out there, yang still keep talking bout these things, I mean seriously talking, not for carut-carut session, I would suggest to stop. I'm not saying that I agrred with what the demon had done, nor did i said i hate the demon for the result. It just that we can't changed what had already happen. You see, I do believed in KARMA, life is just like a circle, what ever you done, yuo will get the consequences. and also I do uphold the principle of SILVER LINING FOR A GREY CLOUDS.
And also, not many peeps realise that even tho there are attacking the demon, but indirectly they do attack the facade, dignity and pride of other contestant. One of the contestant do said to me that, When peeps talking bout the pageant and how tsumawi it is (wah ayat baru .. tsumawi katanya!!), indirectly the commentor would indiectly said that she is so dumb and stupid to be and to enter the pageant.
Sepeti ayat meks, Kalah pun salah, menang pun salah. But seriously personally i would rather say, Biarlah kita kalah bermaruah jgn menang atas rasuah. krna pada satu hari nanti kite akan bersua muka dengan org ramai. Kita tinggal di satu bola sfora bergelar BUMI yang kemana arah kiter berjalan akan kembali ke tempat yang sama. Biarlah kiter mampu untuk memdongakkan kepala, bertegur sapa dengan kawan kawan tanpa rasa salah dan silu dari kiter menyembunyikan diri dan menunduk malu. Nescaya satu hari nanti kiter yang berbuat jahat, akan tunduk terjelupuk merayu merintih memohon kemaafan dari kawan kawan sendiri.
Betul idak? Kan!! Here I repeat nah! I do not meant to direct thios entry to any party. it is a general statement that can be used not only for the Miss Malaysia 2006 pageant scenario but also in the kancah politik negara.
posted by Isis Natasha @ 05:09 5 Comments
EVERYBODY BEAUTIFUL?
Wednesday, October 4
Well, lepas all of you baca that title kan ... DO you agree that every body is beautiful in its own every way? Agree idak? LAgu Body Beautiful said so! and I beleive LKY also believe that, tul idak! But not me! Why? Korang tgk movie bawah nie, and then baca sekali ittiew subtitle nah!
Now what say you? Wakakaka
Labels: Blogging
posted by Isis Natasha @ 06:33 1 Comments
Hugh Dancy - Who?
Monday, October 2
Ella Enchanted
Well, sapa pernah tgk citer Ella Enchanted? Korang perasan or idak, the prince charming yang tidak beberapa cando ittiew? Itulah Hugh Dancy. Actually, I was watching Elizabeth I yang hanggat dipertontonkan die Hallmark channel, well for sure la kan, since Jeremy Irons berlakon with Helen Mirren (by the way, melerts sgt depa dua berlakon! Me suke sgt! I was so into the character hangpa tau tak!! By the way, me salute Helen Mirren, dah la dpt berlaokn jadi Elizabeth The Virgin Queen, la ni dpt lagik jadi Queen Elizabeth II for the movie baru The Queen, BRAVO sundel - me talking like this as if me ni kawan die je!). And then, I was so taken with Lord of Essex (played by Hugh Dancy)'s sexiness. And th truth is, I was terkejut jugak la bile tgk tgk HUGH DANCY? The guy yang tidak beberapa hot dlm ella enchanted ittiew sebenarnya yang meks kata sexy? Oh no!
See, Berbezakan!!! Scrool bawah lagik!
Of cos la ... the tranformation is so damn different (to my eyes la, tak tau la korang pikiq apa kan!). It was melihat with my own eyes, selepas and sebelum kawan kawan i dragui di malam sabtu sajork. (kekekekeke - matilah!!! who? Reza to Bibinoa yerk? opps!). Different sgt! So, since me terlalu ingin tahu and ingin sangat nak examine Hugh Dancy nie, I browsing trough the net la kan, and lagi terkejut! This guy berlakon dalam King Arthur! Aiyoooo .. how on earth me leh idak perasan!!! Adakah Hugh Dancy ini baru mengunakan kemenyan muka or baru cucuk sana cucuk sini bagi cando sikit? Erm ... I'm so confuse lew!
So Berbeza kan!
Why yerk? So, since me tidak percaya, pergi la ke Yahoo and search la for pictures Hugh Dancy nie ... jumpe la begitu banyak pictures yang agak berbeza. Siap terkeluar Orlando Bloom and Clive Owen's pictures (Me idak tahu how yerk? Korang nampak ke persamaan depa?). Also ada satu pictures Hugh Dancy ni nampak mcm Jude Law uols!!! Percaya tak? Tapi ada one picture tue, Muke die ni moreless the same as Orlandoo Bloom with a Juda Law's trademark pose.
Ada rupa macam Orlando sikit kan!!
Melerst la die nie .. suddenly kan!!! Hiks! And lagi satu me tidak percaya, actually Hugh Dancy nie la yang me dok tasty kat dlm citer Sleeping Dictionary lakonan Jessica Alba (ala the one yang Jessica Alba jadi orang Iban kat Sarawak ittiew!!). Lain sangat muke die ... Me salute la this guy kerna mampu untuk berubah wajah dengan Make over yang tidak melampau. Ala ala hair cut udah cukup untuk berubah rupa, belum lagi make up Krayolan 8 hinchi kan!
The Sleeping Dictionary - Jessica Alba and Hugh Dancy, Sarawak
Labels: Actors and Actresses
posted by Isis Natasha @ 14:54 0 Comments
Today Journal
Sunday, October 1
Saja nak bgtau, that my streamyx line at home sweet home dah occay dah . So la nie, boleh la everyday post entry kan . I plan to make this blog as a diary ... an online diary. A journal that wrote and be documented as a living proof to the up and down which happen in life of Isis Myra Natasha Ayutullah, leyh? Hiks!!
Hey talking about online diary, me tibe tibe terpikir pasal Leosabri. Dulu dia pun wat gak online diary (which, kalau you guys click at his name nanti akan kaur another page of his blog, under renovated i guess). And i wish i will meet him again. He used to be active in conferance ym, usually late night, singing like a pontilanak. And i heard rumour he had moved to Johore. Oh God, how I miss all my dearest long lost friends.
Last night, I went to Issac's birthday party and the food was obsolutely fabbbbbbbuolousssss Isaac. Seriously, I was so drift away fromt he reality and the presentation, WOW! Wonderful, Choc cake with strawberry, Yummy!
Thanks to ADAM for the heklp about my car semalam. Binawe tul la my alarm system to my car. I think it is time to get a new sugard and asked for a new car, (matilah bina rumah baru kat sebelah rumah now, Adam u rasa org yang nama die Salim Tomok occay tak? I leh duduk umah besr mcm Sarimah kan! Hiks!). Tomorrow I gonna take my car to Ah Leong to change and rip off the auto alarm system that Daddy instal last 3 month. It is really annoying la. ARGH!!!Adam, thanks again.
And not to forget, once again, I wait forever for KIE! **LARIKKKKK. Nak marah tak leh nanti kene calit muke ngan lumpur, nak ngadu tak leh, terima aja la. Dah masak pung. Like Bibi or REZA SHAH said, wait for ahile or wait forever tue? erm ..... hiks! Matilah. Breani mati i carut kie kat blog. Merasa Merasa. As 5the advise me last night, selawat and CABUTTTTTT!!!!
Since i mentioned 5the's name, last night for the first time I private msg with him. Really good and interetsting. I share my happiness and saddness, all my problem with him and he has been a very good listener. Really good and i took all his advise. Me selawat and titon uols. Just like what u told, and now, it is better and die no longer sentap. Thanks you'ols!
What else happen today yerk? Oh yeah! Me ternampak Lea's new photoshoot. Oh my GOD! Matilah Siti Kawin or Arezeo cakap, Corpse Bride Hidup Balik!!!! Kalau last few weeks, kemunculan Lea di Orange dikatakan as a Corspe Bride (Pengantin Jerangkung) with her balck wedding dress and all, but this time, she came out with a white wedding gown, tiaras, vintage kebaya, marilyn monroe - shristina aguiler look alike photoes. Such inspiration, but I don't think i can do the same concept. Well, my figure are totally different form Lea's. Too skinny for bridal photoshoot but too supermodel - look - alike to be a corspe bride! (matilah! wakakakakakka!). I'm waiting for Lea to release all her photoes. Wonderful girl.
Photoshoot? Me? yeah! I already palnned a few concept, waiting for Shaker to confirm the date adn venue. Clue? Jungle!
Pen Off~
Labels: Blogging
posted by Isis Natasha @ 18:26 1 Comments
this entry is not meant to hurt anyone or anything, this is just a confession og my heart.
It has been a year from that tragedy. I used to like this one fella, who is also a ym-goers. What should we asked more, he is kinda cute, in my eyes, stabil financially, good job, a car and a caring heart. He is kinda of a brother to me at first, but as we get closer and know each other personality, the friendship blooms into love. but at the end, it tun out, it was only my feelings and all of sudden all those fantasy became a reality. he didn't choose me but a good friend of mine. i never blame them, i wish them to be happy at that moment.
but this past experienece really make me to feel fear of love. afraid to love a person. afraid to be in love. made me phobia for love. im afraid to have feeling and i wish i was a manneuin, stood up gracefully but no soul. no need to worries and no need to weep at night.
but in the end, at the bottom of my heart, deep deep inside, i knew no one can survive this life without any campanion, like a wise man said before, "No Man Is An Island".
And i do believe on the phrase, "Life is just like a Circle". i cried for days when the love triangle situation happen, and i dont want to lose this chance again. but it is indeed a long way full of torns and demon hands. i knew, all these thing will happen and will keep repeating happen to me.
in order to win the king's heart, against thousand of eligible ladies in the court, i will keep strong and head up. but i also knew that i have to prepare for the worst part. and i realise, i will never be able to handle it.
it has been a very long sinc emy last cry. it has been a year. yes that it. a year. the last one is when the confession regarding the love triangle thinggy thing. and after that, i suck it all up. and i knew, this dam had reach it limit. and it will explode once again, and the ugly cry will burst out.
I'm confuse. I'm confuse. I'm confuse. Confuse of everything.
what im wearing is just a masked. a masked that hid the sorrow. a mask that hid the hideous creature. a mask that hid the timid creature away. a mask that project the image of a strong, bold, cheerful and alive perosn. a script been written by the puppetmaster. laughter being recored earlier. but at the end, it was me, only me who know everyt single gossip inside my heart.
only me, yes only me.
Regards with love,
posted by Isis Natasha @ 03:08 0 Comments
It has been a year from that tragedy. I used to like this one fella, who is also a ym-goers. What should we asked more, he is kinda cute, in my eyes, stabil financially, good job, a car and a caring heart. He is kinda of a brother to me at first, but as we get closer and know each other personality, the friendship blooms into love. but at the end, it tun out, it was only my feelings and all of sudden all those fantasy became a reality. he didn't choose me but a good friend of mine. i never blame them, i wish them to be happy at that moment.
but this past experienece really make me to feel fear of love. afraid to love a person. afraid to be in love. made me phobia for love. im afraid to have feeling and i wish i was a manneuin, stood up gracefully but no soul. no need to worries and no need to weep at night.
but in the end, at the bottom of my heart, deep deep inside, i knew no one can survive this life without any campanion, like a wise man said before, "No Man Is An Island".
And i do believe on the phrase, "Life is just like a Circle". i cried for days when the love triangle situation happen, and i dont want to lose this chance again. but it is indeed a long way full of torns and demon hands. i knew, all these thing will happen and will keep repeating happen to me.
in order to win the king's heart, against thousand of eligible ladies in the court, i will keep strong and head up. but i also knew that i have to prepare for the worst part. and i realise, i will never be able to handle it.
it has been a very long sinc emy last cry. it has been a year. yes that it. a year. the last one is when the confession regarding the love triangle thinggy thing. and after that, i suck it all up. and i knew, this dam had reach it limit. and it will explode once again, and the ugly cry will burst out.
I'm confuse. I'm confuse. I'm confuse. Confuse of everything.
what im wearing is just a masked. a masked that hid the sorrow. a mask that hid the hideous creature. a mask that hid the timid creature away. a mask that project the image of a strong, bold, cheerful and alive perosn. a script been written by the puppetmaster. laughter being recored earlier. but at the end, it was me, only me who know everyt single gossip inside my heart.
only me, yes only me.
posted by Isis Natasha @ 03:08 0 Comments