today i woke up with a smile but i guess i gonne end my day with a cry
in the morning i hope for a sunlight, but the end the only thing i get is only raindrops flowing down my cheek
a lot of rumours had been heard, none of them can be true in my heart
how loud i yelled, how loud i scream
still unable to stop the demon shout

a long time i live, a long time i learn
a long time i gained experience, a long way i already went
still can find the true match, the perfect love
when i found one and believe it is the true love of my heart,
appear alot of demon hand try to pull me down
no matter how hard i tried, i still cant win the king's heart,
still be the servant by the cinder

am i that ugly?
am i that unlucky?
am i not meant to be loved?
am i not meant feel loved?
am i not being destinied to enjoy love?
am i be be born to watch and envy other peep enjoying love?
am i being here to watch other peeps trick me?
am i the soul that being sent away without soulmate?
am i going to die alone?
am i going to watch my body being cremenated alone?

when other peeps said u can have easily have men,
only i knew how hard it is
i lost faith on the proverb,
there is a soulmate for everyone,
i lose faith to believe a new day has come,
i lost faith to continue on living

for me there are single lining behind every grey clouds,
but they are meant for others,
not for me, not for Isis Natasha,

emotional breakdown some peeps may say,
temporary to others few,
forever in my heart,
so long had wait for a sun to shine,
crying badly when it start to move away again, again and again.

Labels: Relationship

Regards with love,

posted by Isis Natasha @ 22:55