CHAPTER 3 : FASHIONS part 1!!
Monday, October 30
Lama sungguh rasanya I tak update blog I kan! hiks! Lalalala, sebelum I memulakan madah madah menyambung cerita episode yang tertunggak, ingin disini I ucapkan Selamat Hari Ghaya Eid-Fitri 1427 kepada semua pembaca. Kalau ada salah dan silap, harap maafkan la yer~
Episode 3 : Fashions!
Bagaimana tajuk episode tiga? La la la. Fashions! katanya. In this chapter, I will wrote about how dress up during those days! Katanya!
Me masih ingat lagik, when Marvelon baru je habis dalam 3 or 4 papan mcm tue, me dah berani lite lite pakai make up.
Actually masa first first masuk mmg dah bermake up. Start ngan make up biasa foundation sajork. But masa tue me tak pakai maybeline or wat so ever, troos start ngan pancake chinese with serum spray. Hiks! Matilah tengah hari buta, muka I macam clay tanah liat kan!!!
Lepas dah abis 2 papan mcm tue, ala lite-lite aje blusher yg meks berikan. Ala-ala kaler brown earth color. Masa ni masih lagi berpakaian lelaki. Katernya, Kemeja tapi ada cutting. Apa temanya? Eye shadow pung dinch berani pakai yerk. Me occay lagik!
Lepas dah berpapan-papan, my breast getting bigger, me pung pakai la push bra. That it! Masa pakai Push bra ni, I still remember, the first bra me beli was kat KLCC kat bawah ittiew. Kaler hitam katanya. Black is exclusive. La la la.
And starting that, bermacam-macam bra mek beli. Ada yang ada diamonds la, lace la and all. Tapi my most fave bra is lace Pink, base kaler hitam with diamons. Beli murah sajork! Kat Bintang Fashion leh! Sebenar bra ittiew kaler hitam je. Biasa la pondan pondan gaban gaban kan creative gilbabs! meks pung beli lace shockign pink tambah sana tambah sini, tampal diamond ... lepas tue pakai la. La la la. Tapi sayang bra ittiew telah hilang masa pindha pindah rumah dulu. Sayang tul. Tapi kalo ada pung nak wat per, bukannye pakai kan!
Baju pun, berubah sikit sikit. Mula mula beli kemeja perempuan yg cutting tenggek and all. baju kemeja mcm te mmg dah beli lama masa zaman awal-awal. Cos kan nak gi klass kene la pakai baju berkolarkan kaedahnya. Sahsiah rupa diri sgt yer!
Lepas tue, jab me cuba nak ingat the first time me pakai skirt. Oh yes! That was masa kuar gi curans ngan Jee and tTyra keliling Sec 9. Mini skirt katanya! matilah tayang ranting kayu kan! From that moment, everytime kuar aje, terus mememaki skirt or at least yg leh tayang kaki.
Tue yang jadi kes last year, gi bazaar ramadhan, pakai mini skirt, bolero putih yang teramat pendek. I think i ada gambar tue masa ni bukan la masa kat bazaar ramadhan. ni a week after that masa bersahur ramai ramai kat NZ Curry House. Me kie and all.
If I not mistaken, my jeans kan yang pjg baru ada 2 . Skirt melambak. Padding lagi melambak. Heels jgn cakap la. Every week, ada duit aje, dpt voucher aje, terus redeem beli heels kan! dari heels tinggi vincci, to flip flop Uptown Dsara. Lama-lama sikit baru la belajar nak tempah heels, dari situ that it la! Teruskan lakan pandai ke Nagoya, beli kain untuk buat kasut. Lepas tue now, semua kasut tue, hanya letak dlm kotak kat store rumah my mum. How? PEMBAZIRAN sgt yer! La la la - tapi tak pe, janji I puas rasa semua tu.
Next Chapter 4 : Fashions part 2
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Chapter 2 : The Baby Step
Friday, October 20
Hari nie me rasa nak jadi gigih la sikit. Macam nak wat due entry la today! Tibe-tibe I dapat satu idea yang macam best aje. hiks! But let start with Chapter 2 first!
Chapter 2 : The Baby Step
Well, to certain readers yang dinch tahu pasal dragui bagai ni, atau cara untuk mendapatkan body yang persis perempuan seperti Bibi, Laura Madonna and Vivianna, we have to eat certain pill. Actually pill ini adalah pill pencegah kehamilan or pill hormon seperti it is widely known. Untuk keterenagn lebih lanjut, boleh la bermesej-mesej dengan XXX mengenai pill ini. **LARIK!!!!!
Actually, about those pill, leh dapat kan dengan mudah. Dulu masa me makan all of these, beli je kat farmasi, sometimes abang ittiew siap rekemen kan yang mana lagik sesuai. Price range depends on the product. Siap ada yang cetak rompak lagi.
Masa me start makan dulu, biasa la. Kita start of cos la dengan yang biasa biasa aje kan! Tidak lain tidak bukan Marvelon! DUH! Me masih ingat lagi that was 2 years back! (Wow! It has been 2 years dah! Lama nye! Masa tue me pun tidak kenal Kie lagik kan! Lalalala). Masa tue me masih lagi study in Law Faculty Shah Alam first semester degree student. But kaedahnya dah berani nie, adik adik biasa la kan. Umur 19 years old but dah start bermake-up ke kelas. Kaedahnya tetek dinch ado sume but make up kalah perempuan tulen lain kan! Me no comment sgt!
Masa tu, me duduk serumah kat sec18. Tak nak kalah nie. When the uni give me a room tak mo duduk kan. The room kat hostel tue siap untuk empat org lagi. Masa tu, 4 org tu mewah sgt. And guess hostel mana? PERINDU SUNDEL!!!! kolej Perindu nimacam haeven la to all bapok bapoks! Me dapat lak Perindu 4, blok budak tentera and budak sukan. Aiyooo! Me sungguh stupid! Kalo me ambik memang tak menang tgn but thanks god me tak amik. Kalo tak makin sundal la perangai meks!
What ever la, dengan semangat gigih me sanggup yerk keluar rumah sewa di sec18 tue sejam awal untuk amik Bus Mini kaler Pink (meks suke ittiew kaler suker girang sgt!!) kemudian turun kat Sec2, depan medan makan lama itu or seberang kolej Jati. Lepas tue, dengan with all the books (paham pahamla, buku Law beart sundel!) me kene lintas that big road to seberang jalan, sebaris ngan koleh Jati untuk amik Bus UiTM pula. Masa dalam bus pink itu boleh la ala ala feeling kekwt becos tak ramai org, but dah nak naik itu bus UiTM kene la berebut kan!
Begitu Gigih nye I kan!! Lepas tue, I still remember every Monday I mesti pergi ke farmasi yang sebelah 7-E kat sec18 untuk membeli Marvelon. Even tho that pill was supposed to be eaten sehari sebijik! But me DINCH!!! Setiap hari from the first day me eat that thing, More than once. For the first three month, makan lagi best. Me dah rasa that pill macam nasi. Macam ni tau, Me memang terkenal di fac with my clique after last class of the day aje, terus cabut pergi ke coffee house kat Menara or Kedai Kopi at tasik for tea time. Makan cheese cake la, mocha and just hang out and chill. Makan one slice of cheese cake, makan 2 biji pills. After Lunch, 2 pills. Dah macam makan antibiotik dah. 2 biji setiap kali lepas makan. Macam mana la tak abis duit. Gigih kan?
After a few months, baru la me berperangai seperti manusia sedikit. Sehari me makan 3 pill. Sepapan ada 21 pill, so seminggu la tahan. Tue yang every Monday gi farmasi tu. Mule mule sepapan RM9, and then naik jadi RM10.50 and now, me gi survery harga kat that same farmasi, sudah RM12!!!! HArgh tuih mahal nyew!
But the effect mmg berkesan. Pimples hilang in a week. Nafsu makan astagana ilmaualana. Hanya Tuhan yang tahu betapa kuat makan nye I masa tue. But thanks GOD, my berat tidak naik mendadak. Infact my berat boleh dikatakan maintain (MAINTAIN KE NAIK 5 KG!). But serius shit. Kenaikan berat badan melonjak-lonjak! Tue yang terus cut down makan pill tu.
But then, mmg ketara la dienye effect. Mmg ketara. Sgt ketara. That is my baby step becoming a girl - years back! Lepas tue, lama-lama, dah pandai sikit, baru la advanced sedikit at the age of 19. But that will be in the other chapter!
Next Chapter 3 : Penangan Diane!
Actually, about those pill, leh dapat kan dengan mudah. Dulu masa me makan all of these, beli je kat farmasi, sometimes abang ittiew siap rekemen kan yang mana lagik sesuai. Price range depends on the product. Siap ada yang cetak rompak lagi.
Masa me start makan dulu, biasa la. Kita start of cos la dengan yang biasa biasa aje kan! Tidak lain tidak bukan Marvelon! DUH! Me masih ingat lagi that was 2 years back! (Wow! It has been 2 years dah! Lama nye! Masa tue me pun tidak kenal Kie lagik kan! Lalalala). Masa tue me masih lagi study in Law Faculty Shah Alam first semester degree student. But kaedahnya dah berani nie, adik adik biasa la kan. Umur 19 years old but dah start bermake-up ke kelas. Kaedahnya tetek dinch ado sume but make up kalah perempuan tulen lain kan! Me no comment sgt!
Masa tu, me duduk serumah kat sec18. Tak nak kalah nie. When the uni give me a room tak mo duduk kan. The room kat hostel tue siap untuk empat org lagi. Masa tu, 4 org tu mewah sgt. And guess hostel mana? PERINDU SUNDEL!!!! kolej Perindu nimacam haeven la to all bapok bapoks! Me dapat lak Perindu 4, blok budak tentera and budak sukan. Aiyooo! Me sungguh stupid! Kalo me ambik memang tak menang tgn but thanks god me tak amik. Kalo tak makin sundal la perangai meks!
What ever la, dengan semangat gigih me sanggup yerk keluar rumah sewa di sec18 tue sejam awal untuk amik Bus Mini kaler Pink (meks suke ittiew kaler suker girang sgt!!) kemudian turun kat Sec2, depan medan makan lama itu or seberang kolej Jati. Lepas tue, dengan with all the books (paham pahamla, buku Law beart sundel!) me kene lintas that big road to seberang jalan, sebaris ngan koleh Jati untuk amik Bus UiTM pula. Masa dalam bus pink itu boleh la ala ala feeling kekwt becos tak ramai org, but dah nak naik itu bus UiTM kene la berebut kan!
Begitu Gigih nye I kan!! Lepas tue, I still remember every Monday I mesti pergi ke farmasi yang sebelah 7-E kat sec18 untuk membeli Marvelon. Even tho that pill was supposed to be eaten sehari sebijik! But me DINCH!!! Setiap hari from the first day me eat that thing, More than once. For the first three month, makan lagi best. Me dah rasa that pill macam nasi. Macam ni tau, Me memang terkenal di fac with my clique after last class of the day aje, terus cabut pergi ke coffee house kat Menara or Kedai Kopi at tasik for tea time. Makan cheese cake la, mocha and just hang out and chill. Makan one slice of cheese cake, makan 2 biji pills. After Lunch, 2 pills. Dah macam makan antibiotik dah. 2 biji setiap kali lepas makan. Macam mana la tak abis duit. Gigih kan?
After a few months, baru la me berperangai seperti manusia sedikit. Sehari me makan 3 pill. Sepapan ada 21 pill, so seminggu la tahan. Tue yang every Monday gi farmasi tu. Mule mule sepapan RM9, and then naik jadi RM10.50 and now, me gi survery harga kat that same farmasi, sudah RM12!!!! HArgh tuih mahal nyew!
But the effect mmg berkesan. Pimples hilang in a week. Nafsu makan astagana ilmaualana. Hanya Tuhan yang tahu betapa kuat makan nye I masa tue. But thanks GOD, my berat tidak naik mendadak. Infact my berat boleh dikatakan maintain (MAINTAIN KE NAIK 5 KG!). But serius shit. Kenaikan berat badan melonjak-lonjak! Tue yang terus cut down makan pill tu.
But then, mmg ketara la dienye effect. Mmg ketara. Sgt ketara. That is my baby step becoming a girl - years back! Lepas tue, lama-lama, dah pandai sikit, baru la advanced sedikit at the age of 19. But that will be in the other chapter!
Next Chapter 3 : Penangan Diane!
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Chapter 1 - The Begining : The Definiton
Thursday, October 19
What a day to start a new chapter in this blog (blog yang mungkin dinch ado pembaca, HikS!). This story will be all about me, my past, a 24-hours-dragqueen.
In this first chapter, I will talk about my own definition of myself (matilah puji diri emlambung kan! janji bakul tu terangkat - ko ado? hiks!- No lah! Ko hengat me ni idak ada kije ke nak puji diri sendiri?).
There are alot of word that can being used by people around us to descirbe 'people like us (PLU)'. Ada yang kata we are dragqueen, BAPOK, NYAH, NYIEEEEH, PONDAN, GAYBOY, KHALID, dan banyak lagi lah. Dari yang kelakar, to yang sungguh menyakitkan hati. Tapi ada jugak dalam banyak banyak tue, yang define ourselves, to gays and dragqueen as GTPL - or full name die Golongan Tidak Pecah Lobang. Confirm yang cakap tue either laki kite semua or kite sendiri kan! hiks!
Kalau kite tengok in dictionary especially in MERRIAM-WEBSTER, a dragqueen can be deifne as a male homosexual who dresses as a woman especially for comic or theatrical effect. (Theatrical katanya! - matilah fifi!). As the word transgender, the definition in the Webster is having personal characteristics (as transsexuality or transvestism ) that transcend traditional gender boundaries and corresponding sexual norms (matilah lelaki bernaluri perempuan!). And the other word is homosexual which mean of, relating to, or characterized by a tendency to direct sexual desire toward another of the same sex.
Dengan erti kata lain (let me simplified everything nah! Me takut my reader confius dengan defintion melampau given by merriam-webster itu kan). Drag queen ialah seorang gayboy yang berpakaian wanita. Mereka boleh berkemungkinan memakan pil hormon (as in for me - used to! NO MORE!!) or tidak mengambil pil langsung. Clear? A transgender on the other hand is seorang lelaki yang bernaluri kan perempuan tetapi tidak semesti nye berpakian wanita a.k.a drag (matilah sekarang baru me tahu adik adik also transgender!). Last one homosexual ialah lelaki yang meminati lelaki tetapi tak semestinya bernaluri wanita, ada yang very maskulin but at the end, menongeng juga, kan!
But kaedahnya .. ada sesiapa leh jawab bile yang drag bagai cantik bagai, cucuk sana, berkolegen sana, bersusuk sini .. at the end, sekali TOP? opps! Me dont mentioned any names here! lalala
Even tho, this online dictionary give alot of definiton yang berlainandan membawa maksud berlainan, to me, I tetap rasa the only definiton that described and define these three group is human. Tul tak? Walau macam mana kulit rupa, rupa paras, berapa cucuk in ur dagu, what is hair colour, tetap maintain human. Kelarla Viviana's, Lea's, Ginger's, mine or any of us punya tangan tetap kuar darah merah sama as the straight people. (but me guess any of you tikam me in the dada, putih kot yg kuar - well, MAHSURI! lalalala or issit susu tepung beku?)
Kan! if you guys dengar ittiew denyutan jantung ku, sama dengan denyutan jantungmu jua. (matilah scene cartoon Tarzan and Jane). So at the end of the dat, at the end of the line, kita semua adalah serupa sahaja. Yang membezakan kita adalah color kulit, wig, highlight rambut dan sebegainya. Tetapi deep inside our body, behind those beautiful and ugly faces, tolak kuak all kolegen and susuk, is still the same white ugly skulls. Our body still dibuat dari DNA berformula yang sama. Dinch tiada perbezaan.
That is my definition. Here I bukan nak mengagungkan the right of the third gender (Ko gile nak lawan MFC?) or what. Just nak bagitau, nak berkongsi pengalaman me living as a full 24-7 dragqueen. But whatis the point me membebel nanti about my experience tapi my readers dinch tahu the definition kan?
Next - Chapter 2:Present Me Wrtting 'bout Begining of My Past!
In this first chapter, I will talk about my own definition of myself (matilah puji diri emlambung kan! janji bakul tu terangkat - ko ado? hiks!- No lah! Ko hengat me ni idak ada kije ke nak puji diri sendiri?).
There are alot of word that can being used by people around us to descirbe 'people like us (PLU)'. Ada yang kata we are dragqueen, BAPOK, NYAH, NYIEEEEH, PONDAN, GAYBOY, KHALID, dan banyak lagi lah. Dari yang kelakar, to yang sungguh menyakitkan hati. Tapi ada jugak dalam banyak banyak tue, yang define ourselves, to gays and dragqueen as GTPL - or full name die Golongan Tidak Pecah Lobang. Confirm yang cakap tue either laki kite semua or kite sendiri kan! hiks!
Kalau kite tengok in dictionary especially in MERRIAM-WEBSTER, a dragqueen can be deifne as a male homosexual who dresses as a woman especially for comic or theatrical effect. (Theatrical katanya! - matilah fifi!). As the word transgender, the definition in the Webster is having personal characteristics (as transsexuality or transvestism ) that transcend traditional gender boundaries and corresponding sexual norms (matilah lelaki bernaluri perempuan!). And the other word is homosexual which mean of, relating to, or characterized by a tendency to direct sexual desire toward another of the same sex.
Dengan erti kata lain (let me simplified everything nah! Me takut my reader confius dengan defintion melampau given by merriam-webster itu kan). Drag queen ialah seorang gayboy yang berpakaian wanita. Mereka boleh berkemungkinan memakan pil hormon (as in for me - used to! NO MORE!!) or tidak mengambil pil langsung. Clear? A transgender on the other hand is seorang lelaki yang bernaluri kan perempuan tetapi tidak semesti nye berpakian wanita a.k.a drag (matilah sekarang baru me tahu adik adik also transgender!). Last one homosexual ialah lelaki yang meminati lelaki tetapi tak semestinya bernaluri wanita, ada yang very maskulin but at the end, menongeng juga, kan!
But kaedahnya .. ada sesiapa leh jawab bile yang drag bagai cantik bagai, cucuk sana, berkolegen sana, bersusuk sini .. at the end, sekali TOP? opps! Me dont mentioned any names here! lalala
Even tho, this online dictionary give alot of definiton yang berlainandan membawa maksud berlainan, to me, I tetap rasa the only definiton that described and define these three group is human. Tul tak? Walau macam mana kulit rupa, rupa paras, berapa cucuk in ur dagu, what is hair colour, tetap maintain human. Kelarla Viviana's, Lea's, Ginger's, mine or any of us punya tangan tetap kuar darah merah sama as the straight people. (but me guess any of you tikam me in the dada, putih kot yg kuar - well, MAHSURI! lalalala or issit susu tepung beku?)
Kan! if you guys dengar ittiew denyutan jantung ku, sama dengan denyutan jantungmu jua. (matilah scene cartoon Tarzan and Jane). So at the end of the dat, at the end of the line, kita semua adalah serupa sahaja. Yang membezakan kita adalah color kulit, wig, highlight rambut dan sebegainya. Tetapi deep inside our body, behind those beautiful and ugly faces, tolak kuak all kolegen and susuk, is still the same white ugly skulls. Our body still dibuat dari DNA berformula yang sama. Dinch tiada perbezaan.
That is my definition. Here I bukan nak mengagungkan the right of the third gender (Ko gile nak lawan MFC?) or what. Just nak bagitau, nak berkongsi pengalaman me living as a full 24-7 dragqueen. But whatis the point me membebel nanti about my experience tapi my readers dinch tahu the definition kan?
Next - Chapter 2:Present Me Wrtting 'bout Begining of My Past!
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NEW SECTION - ONCE I WAS A GIRL
Wednesday, October 18
That's it! Sempena raya tahun ini, I rasa biarlah I berterus terang kepada semua. Tidak mahu ada sebarang tirai yang memencilkan diri I dari I dari pembaca (kaedahnya ada pembaca ke kan?). Tidak mahu ada sebraang pelindung. Tidak mahu ada sebarang topeng yang mengasingkan diriku dari kalian.
To me, as a blogger (even tho tak la semua org dok baca my blog kan .. even I can say that my blog tidaklah dieketahui org pung! Yang tahu pung just close friends! - which I guess this story would be a basi one!), when you already have a blog and you have the responsibility to maintain and update it - kalau tak mampu everyday, at least jangan la sampai berabuk, berkulat, bersawang bagai - yopu have to fulfill it. And to me I already set my mind that i want this blog to be something that talk 'bout my life, as my journal, as a living proof that I'm alive.
But however, eversince, this blog (I mean my blog la kan!), only talk about the life of Isis Natasha. Not the other half personality of mine. (jeng jeng jeng! Other half? jeng jeng jeng!). And it only talk about the present life of mine.
I got this idea masa I tgh driving from KL to Shah Alam to send Yaya back other house in Sec 18. And I tought it would be something special and meaningful and I hope it will complete me in order to accept me for who I am and for what I am (Lea .. hang rasa mcm hang pernah dengar tak ayat ittiew? lalalala - Sara, me pinjam ayat hang nah!).
Here is how I gonna do it. I will write chapter by chapter (Lea, me pinjam konsep "I Was Once A Showgirl" tau!!) and I gonna wrote every important details or every important events that happen during my past. And it will only be about my life as a 24 hours dragqueen.
The first chapter is still going to be out real soon!
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